Joyce ||

2011-06-14T09:55:00.001-07:00

At times, I imagine embracing; being embraced, by an unknown familiarity. Kissing those lips that I had dreamed of, though, the face was never seen.

I've known to like 2 guys.

One, was seen by all as the flirt; the extremely sociable and easy to talk to. I was quiet, and in my own world. But, he would come to my place, frequently, and stuck a conversation with me. I guess, that's the reason I liked him. I was able to get to know him, more than the others. He was the first guy that talk to me as if I mattered, I guess. A gentleman who I came to like. I like to call him, in my mind, his given Chinese name. I guess, it was me trying to be just a little bit special. I had liked him for 3 years, sometimes off-ing when I tried to back out from this seemingly one-sided relationship. What was I to think myself as the special one when he does this to every other girl he meets? My mind refused to admit. I refused to be the one confessing.

Another, a friend; who stood by me when I was obsessing with the idea of the first. An awkward guy he was, but open on his views. I had deem myself not to like anyone younger than me, even by a few months. So, I specified that to him. Nevertheless, he still stood by me, until the day we graduated. It was until I started to forget about the first when I thought of the second. I started to blush, even just a bit. Friends had told me that he liked me. Was I wrong?

There was no turning back. The second had tried to confess, in his own way, I guess. He had ask me randomly, which left me stunned and he quickly removed that question with something. I could had replied there, but what was I thinking? Now, even if I wanted to, he could no long be reached, turning me away with the same reason I've used since the start. What could had happened if I had been quick-minded?

I feel nothing. Absolutely nothing. Blank. I brought this upon myself. I'm the only one to be blamed.

2010-09-29T22:29:00.000-07:00

Cosplay Plans:

Confirmed:

Shinku (Rozen Maiden)
Azusa (K-on! Don't say Lazy Fan-made)
Miku ( Vocaloid Magnet)
Vanilla (Yumeiro Patissiere Sweet Spirit)
Hana Ichigo (Rozen Maiden)

Tentative:

Taiga (Tora Dora!) --> Got the wig on impulse :P
Ciel ( Kuroshitsuji Ball-Gown)
Ai ( Hellgirl Kimono)
Yutaka/Konata (Lucky Star)
Miku (Vocaloid Cantarella)
Azusa (K-on! Yukata)
Shinku (Rozen Maiden Traumend)
Yuki ( Vampire Knight Guilty Ending)

LOL, so many plans...So little money~~

2010-09-29T22:22:00.001-07:00

Haha, how long since I've updated my blog?

Been spending lots on Cosplay. Wigs, Costumes, Colour Contacts, Shoes.

OH! And not to forget alterations~ (That Chinatown auntie was a leecher!!)

So much that my mum decided to confiscate my ATM card. LOL!

thus, I'm officially, broke..:'(

Actually, it was me who gave the card to her. I just don't want her to see the amount I've spent :P Cos, its unreasonably SCARY. Lucky I'm done with all the transfers I need. So I'll not be using it for a while. In the mean time, Mum can help me control my potential-shopaholic lifestyle.

Hope I can earn more $$!! Need jobs! (Near one at that..hahaha!)

2010-09-01T05:04:00.001-07:00

So addicted to the House of Night series now...Can't wait to buy the rest of the series!

I've been eyeing this series since the first book Marked came out and finally my mum brought back from Taiwan a set of 4 books which includes Marked, Betrayed, Chosen, and Untamed. The Hunted, Tempted and Burned are already in Popular right now but I've been trying to find the St. Martin's Press's version of it (The book cover is nicer :P). Besides, what's better to collect a series that is with the EXACT size and similar overall design?

I finished all 4 books in just 4 days (Av. 1 book per day....but in fact it was like 3 books in 2 FULL days and the 4th took 2 days)

Bad thing is, I'm having exams this week and the next and had not been studying! And the all-so-B teacher of REG decided to weight our finals 65%! 65%!!! Just because she thinks that we cheated! HELLO?! Not like EVERYONE did ok?! Seriously! Argg... (but then again. I'm kinda guilty of asking for Formulae...Eh Ha Ha Ha)

This is definitely gonna cost me some credit lost...I had a feeling I'm gonna flunk the finals..:(

Yan Jie is finally back! With my wigs and all too! XD So excited to collect it tml!!! Of cos, plus studies too...

A Student's Life is only Sad when it comes to exams.

2010-08-30T00:54:00.000-07:00

THE HUES' AUGUST GIVEAWAY

totallyawesomeshit!

Finally received the well packed package from Hues (A Singapore-branded Mineral Cosmetics)

Look at the Bubble wraps! XD (Yes, kinda hard to believe that the only thing I've spend is the electricity bill for my Lappy)

Behold! The Awesome Giveaways! XD Packed with a eyeshadow brush, a full eyeshadow (Cost about $7.50) and 3 small packs of wonderful eyeshadows.

The Eyeshadow that made all this true, Antique Piano! I entered the giveaway without giving any thought. This eyeshadow name was pretty, so I've entered it, and WON! Totally COOL! (note to self: Broaden Vocab esp the term 'cool' and 'awesome')

and...The 3 small packs of eyeshadows! (From left) Stardust, Vintage Violin, Blissful. HOW COOL IS THAT?! Besides, I've been wanting to get pink, coral and blue eyeshadows since god-knows-when. It's like they have been reading my mind or something...LOL!

Side notes: I've been rather hungry so I won't think much of my language used today. If you are elated, hungry and probably thinks that the world is smiling at you, this is how you'll write your blog~

Chiao!

2010-08-25T13:38:00.000-07:00

I don't know how long since I've updated my blog~

Sums up:

OSG (6 people- Lihui can't go, YuYan in China) finally had fun for 3days 2 nights at the LOFT @92! XD The "Camp" would be a heaven if not for the BPP quiz the day after. (Yes, I blame U, Mr Yun! hahaha)

We had to cramp our studies with 3 days straight of McDonalds...1st day was dinner, 2nd lunch, and 3rd breakfast :P But had a crazy night before studying! I was just wondering if those video is ever going to appear on FaceBook~ =.=

The long-awaited Natsu Matsuri finally came and Jiesi, Gladys and HweeKim all came to my house to change into our Yukata. We were actually planning to make a grand entrance with a Maxi-Cab. But the call-service had made us wait for a such a long time that we decided to walk out and flag down 2 cabs. Should had seen the public's faces. I was feeling warm...for one reason or another -.-.

The Changi Japanese Primary School was really big~We brought the Apple Candy because Zee was in front of the line :P (yup, we cut the queue:P) But it wasn't as nice as I thought I was...I even had difficulty biting it!

The Yo-yo game was also fun...though $2 is a little bit too much T-T. I actually caught 4 balloons. However, since Jiesi didn't catch any, I gave her one...and another one of my balloon dropped back into the pond :( So I was left with 2~~

Went back home wearing Yukata, all the way from Changi to CCK, lots of ppl looking at us! I even heard, "Hey! There's a Japanese Girl!" LOL! I reached home around 10 plus...was rather tired and happy! XD

Just today, my Pri Sch Mates tagged me in this class photo. I finally found my long-lost friends! Haha! And how much had they changed! I can't even remb much stuffs we did, except for a few of my close friends, the "Bio-data", Catching, the ever-seemingly delicious $1 noodles in our school canteen. We were talking about meeting up tml. A small gathering. This is gonna be so fun! XD

My gosh...I felt so old...:(

2010-07-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

浜崎あゆみ / Days
ys
浜崎あゆみ / Days
浜崎あゆみ / Days

何気なく交わしてる

言葉の一つ一つが

僕にとってはとても

大事な宝物

Each word you casually exchange with me

Is such a precious treasure to me

だけど十分でもなんだか

恥ずかしいくらいだから

君が知ったらキット

笑われちゃうだろう

But I myself feel a bit embarrassed about this

So if you knew, you would surely laugh at me

会いたくて会いたくて

せめて声が聞きたくて

用もなく電話したり

I want to see you, I want to see you

I want to hear your voice at least

And I sometimes call you with no special reason

君がいるそれだけで

心がとてもあたたかくなる

僕の願いは

たった一つだけ

そんな風にイツまでも

君を好きなままでいていいですか

My heart becomes so warm

Just because you are around me

I have only one wish

Can I stay loving you forever

Just like this?

大切な人がいる

事はもうずっと前から

知っているよ

だって絵外が輝いてる

I've known for a long time that you have someone precious

Because it's clear from your smile

切なくて切なくて

胸がぎゅっとなる夜も

確かに根あるけれど

Though it's true I spend some nights

Feeling so sad, so sad

And feeling a tightening in my chest

君を思うそれだけで

心は生きる意味を持つから

何かを求めているわけじゃなくて

ただこんな風に

いつまでも

君の好きな僕でいていいですか

If I just think of you

My heart has the meaning to live

I expect nothing special from you

Can I stay loving you forever

Just like this?

会いたくて会いたくて

せめて声が聞きたくて

用もなく電話したり

I want to see you, I want to see you

I want to hear your voice at least

And I sometimes call you with no special reason

君がいるそれだけで

心がとてもあたたかくなる

僕の願いは

たった一つだけ

My heart becomes so warm

Just because you are around me

I have only one wish

Please let me keep on loving you

そんな風にイツまでも

君を好きなままでいていいですか

ことはもうずっと前から知っているよ

だって絵外が輝いてる

I've known for a long time that you have someone precious

Because it's clear from your smile

切なくて切なくて

胸がぎゅっとなるけど

確かに根あるけれど

Though it's true I spend some nights

Feeling so sad, so sad

And feeling a tightening in my chest

君を思うそれだけで

心は生きる意味を持つから

何かを求めているわけじゃなくて

ただこんな風に

いつまでも

君の好きな僕でいていいですか

If I just think of you

My heart has the meaning to live

I expect nothing special from you

Can I stay loving you forever

Just like this?

2010-07-24T21:29:00.000-07:00

Haiz...It's gonna be a busy week starting from tommor.

Tue- TPFF (chap 3-5) quiz

Wed- Jap Speaking test

Fri- Maths (chap 4 to 6) and BPP ( chap 4 to 8) quiz

OMG, 4 tests in one week! It's just like CT period....

I really wanna prove something, it's no doubt I would WANT it. However, it's always the DOING that matters the most. Why can't I just organise my time? I felt so useless, even with all my outstanding friends beside me, and trying to help me....it's no good if I don't help myself.

I've always thought I could just do it, just like that. But I don't possess the ability to learn by just hearing it once, or just by reading through it. Which makes me wonder....why do people always call me "smart" during pri/sec days? I overestimated myself just because of that, and mercilessly I flanked my tests. However, surprisingly, that overestimation still doesn't stop. I had this "if I studied, this could be chicken-feet!" idea coming through my head...when I was staring at the 12 upon 50 paper! This is sad beyond....basically anything.

Same thing happened when people called me "pretty" since young. I've started to become vain, staring at the mirrors for hours, fixing my hair. The perfectionist I am since birth would not allow myself to have flaws. I kept complaining about my nose, my eyes, my eyebrows, my legs....basically everything and occasionally driving my friends nuts.

No wonder they say, "when they are pretty when they are young, they'll grow up ugly..."

I've started to wonder if it is all on purpose....

2010-07-06T17:32:00.000-07:00

The Cos-Craz is not over for me yet and I feel sorry for Gladys cos I had been booming her with pictures regarding the Cosplays. T-T SORRY!!

I didn't do well for maths quiz yesterday (i think), so it's bye-bye A for me :'(. Should have studied....but totally forgot about it until the day before, AFTER watching Eclipse with Kate.

Oh yes, and by the way, I think that the movie is kinda....how to say, draggy? Kate loves it and aims to watch it thrice (Crazy..)

The story just revolves around {what's her name?} wanting to take revenge on Bella cos Edward killed her lover. It just show how the Wolfs and the Vamps worked together on a common goal; protecting Bella. (Though they were still pretty much hating each other's guts) The only thing interesting about the movie was the conversations between Edward and Jacob. There was this part when Bella was almost freezing to death and Edward couldn't do anything about it because he is...well...cold. Then Jacob comes in and hugs Bella, giving her warmth, and he said this to Edward, "Let's face it, I'm Hotter than you!"

LOVED THAT LINE! LOL!

The movie was so draggy that there are a few people who just walked out of the cinema, just like that. And, and few times I was actually tempted to press the fast-forward button. Imagine that.

However, I'll give credits to Jacob's hot half naked body (OMG, I sounded like a pervert!). Oh oh! And, Jacob and Bella kissed! (Though u'll be knowing that if u've seen the trailer~)

Let's face it. I think Twilight Saga 's trailer is basically a summary! -.-

2010-07-05T04:09:00.001-07:00

Okay~ so, Jie Si, Gladys and I had a long convo yesterday about our plans on cosplaying the next events, and we had came out with quite a number too! ( 3 actually) haha!

I posted all the plans on Tumblr -->HERE <--. So check it out! XD

So excited to have plans for cosplay now. We always say "We'll plan we'll plan!" last year but it never succeeded. So I'm guessing we are off to a good start?

WOOT! So excited!

2010-07-04T06:09:00.001-07:00

Just had a wonderful afternoon at Downtown East.

Yes, it's the COSFEST of the year again~!

Imagine....it had been 1 whole year and I still haven't been able to Cos Shinku!! T-T

Lucky, I brought a "Almost Shinku-like" shoe, which is on sale for like....10 bucks?! It just need a few modifications though. Finally got the shoe! And some more, I've found my Shinku wig and a TaoBao User! I also found a second-hand Hana-Ichigo costume that was on sale for $40! Full Set! It's been my lucky week!! XD

I've been practically BEGGING to cosplay since I joined JTC....now, I'm just a few months closer (probably...) to my ever-so-far dream!

Now still thinking what to do with Jie Si ( got 1 or 2 in mind....but nothing is done yet). Also, the Kuroshitsuji or K-On! with Gladys, Huimin...

I really need to get a job~ Been spending more than I've earned!!

2010-07-02T16:54:00.000-07:00

Okay, my BF posted this on her blog during her "Share feelings to the world" moment yesterday.
It's so sweet that I just had to quote it!

......Joyce is my third bestfriend. By the way, i am not ranking my bestfriends, is the sqeuence on i how i know them. About joyce, when i know joyce it was in secondary 2, where i keep bullying her, as she look like a barbie doll! xD SERIOUSLY! Hehehe! It was funny, so everytime i call her barbie doll, she will give me that kind of face —-> =_= Hahaha! It was funny to bully people! xP Anyway, after they all graduated, i did not talk to them anymore. So i only know her more through. When she was in JC and same class as shi min. Hahaha! I invited her to my CNY gathering, i was glad i did! If i did not invite her, i would not have know her that she was so understanding. Seriously! I am so glad i get to know her! =] So this are my 3 bestfriends who believe in me! =] THANK YOU GUYS!

Ya, that was quite a long speech as there are two before me XD This is the first time I had ppl posting such things for me! I still remember that sudden emo-ing day when I sent Email to all my BFFs. Wow, and God, that was long!

So ya, THANK YOU EUDY!!

2010-06-19T21:44:00.002-07:00

Having the 2 weeks holiday now. I shouldn't be slacking like I've been doing so well. After that AnChem, I should had been woken up....but I still ain't, wonder what's wrong with me....

Had my last week of the break planned, all outings and stuffs....when will I be sitting still and study? Which comes another thing that I'd noticed. I found out that I couldn't sit still for more than 10 mins, which had been an easy task if I was the old me. I mean, before, I would not kept asking, "So~ What are we gonna do after this? Where are we going? Are we almost reaching?" Normally the old me will kept quiet and enjoy all the easy-going-ness of that situation.

However, now is a different story.

I'd been fully turned into a "City Kid".

I've been addicted to this song by S.H.E- [我愛雨夜花] lately. It's in Taiwanese and the song was mixed with raps and techno. Kinda the type that pulls me in.

The rhythm had that kind of sadness in it. It reminds me of my grandpa.

I kept playing on repeat; I kept on crying.

Though I was born in Taiwan, I was raised in Singapore and my parents had been teaching us in Chinese. I felt bad as I couldn't communicate well with my grandparents because I couldn't quite understand and speak Taiwanese. I felt that I had betrayed them, I don't know why....

我愛雨夜花 - S.H.E

彼條菅芒比人高的路彎彎曲曲通到山腳
Pieces of silver grass (or reeds) were higher than the winding road which leads to the bottom of the mountain

山腳有一個庄阿公就住置彼
At the bottom of the mountain there was a village which lived my grandfather

青味青味的竹林常常攏嘛隨風底唱歌咪嗦啦咪嗦啦
There was fresh clean taste of bamboo which was often singing along with the wind

Me so la~~ Me So La~~

不知影圓仔花為什麼四季攏嘛咧開滿山
Do not know why Aberdeen flower grew on the entire mountain all year around

甘講這有世外桃源的土跟天堂來的沙
Was there earth from paradise and sand from heaven?

舊柪舊柪的厝瓦一直保護阿公阿嬤阿公自己改編的歌伊唱乎我聽
The old and broken roof tiles had been protecting grandpa and grandma, Grandpa always sung to me the songs that he had adapted

[Chorus]這條歌陪我到大漢常常哼著伊唱也唱袂煞
This song accompanied my growing up, often singing and humming to this song non-stop

希望你同款會凍睛足聽愛珍惜這個聲
Hope you will also listen to it carefully and treasure this sound

這條歌陪我一直到大漢常常哼著伊唱也唱袂煞
This song accompanied my growing up, often singing and humming to this song non-stop

雖然講世界不時在變化嘛是愛這條歌
Although the world is forever changing, I still love this song

（雨夜花雨夜花）袂娶某袂娶某娶到一個呆大摳脖子黑黑目睛凸凸親像火車煙囪管
(Four season) Marry a wife marry a wife marry a big fat person with a dark neck and protruding eyes just like a train’s chimney

（雨夜花雨夜花）袂娶某袂娶某娶到一個呆大摳脖子黑黑目睛凸凸親像火車煙囪管
(Four season) Marry a wife marry a wife marry a big fat person with a dark neck and protruding eyes just like a train’s chimney

逐次返到這個所在我習慣脫赤腳脫赤腳哪走哪迄逃置底軟軟土的田岸
Each time I returned to this place I am used to walk in barefoot and play beside the soft fields

蝴蝶蝴蝶翩翩飛阿飛飛阿飛引我想欲抓這藏有我囝仔時存的笑聲
I tried to catch the non-stop dancing butterflies; my childhood laughter was hidden here

大樹邊的一條溪流流流過陡陡的山壁溪凍水也清照著天照著白雲哪像水鏡
Beside the tree there was a stream flowing through the steep mountain, the water from the stream was like a mirror, shinning on the sky and shinning on the clouds

釣幾尾啊沒魚嘛有蝦起火烤烤來吃哪吃哪換阿嬤唱歌乎阮聽
Although we didn’t catch any fish, we got shrimps so we started the fire and ate grilled shrimps while grandma sung songs to us

[Repeat Chorus]

原來置怹的年代 (欲娶某欲嫁尪~) 不曾有自由的戀愛 (等到有一天~)
Actually during their generation (to marry wife to be married ~) they did not have free love (wait until one day ~)

嫁娶攏聽父母的安排 (原來~) 這就是怹彼個年代 (彼個年代~)
Wedding arrangements must obey their parents (so that was it ~) that was their generation (that time)

[Repeat Chorus]

2010-06-09T23:41:00.000-07:00

It's the time of the year again! It's period of exams....-.-

This time it is cool cos we only need to take two papers in the common test week (Another two after the holidays). That gave us more time to study....and SLACK!

The EM3 paper is already over on Tue and I had been determined to reward myself for studying so hard...for the day before the paper :P (Okay, maybe not so hard...lucky the paper was easy!)

I had planned to rest on Tue and continue my studies for AnChem on Wed. We even booked a room in the Library for that purpose! But then in the end, we actually slacked off and watched Mean Girls in the library instead...:P (Watched that three-four times and still not tried of it!)

Now, it is Thurs 2:48 in the afternoon. The sun is shining, the birds are chipping and I'm using the I-should-be-studying-now time surfing the internet (and updating this Blog :P). Honestly...it is like holiday to me already!

I should be studying right now!!!

2010-05-16T02:06:00.000-07:00

How long since I've updated? The last one was about April 16? That so long ago!

Okay, since that time...in a month, I had:

Went back to Taiwan, had the time of my life and back here again (Of cos with some souvenirs for OSG, Min, Eudy, Bao Bao and Pei)

Gotten my pay from NP's open house!! The first time I saw a fat paycheck like that! Okay, to others this is tiny....

Second semester! Finally saw my OSG and Shiyi who came back from Wuhan a day after my return.

Finally, in my life, I got to see a TALKING POTATO! Talk about miracles! This is definitely one of the EIGHT wonders of the world!!

I got my 19th birthday party...(though not actually a party but still enjoyable!) Spend the day in Lot 1's Cotton On for an hour! Had set up my mind not to buy anything, but it doesn't stop me from getting this gorgeous high hells from Monda. Thanks OSG!! Thanks for the Nike bag and the slim shower gel :P Those two are Very very useful! Also, thank you Soo Ching for her very very Kawaii present! ( I was really shocked when u gave me a Bodyshop Soap! TOTALLY UNEXPECTED! THANK YOU! HAHAHA!) Plus, Tammie for the Birthday card! Thank you so much!!

Had reports and projects to rush through every week since the first week of the new semester. Stress it is....I even had a string of white hair! (And I wasn't really feeling stressed yet!)

Got addcited to this Korean song called "Run Devil Run" and the SNSD's punk rock style in that MV... IT'S SO COOL!

What more did I miss? Time pass by so fast...In a flash, we are year 2 already. To think we just met a year ago.

What will happen to us 10 years down the road? I was wondering....

2010-04-16T05:30:00.000-07:00

Top ten things I normally thought in my head while surfing mindlessly through the net.

(Not in any particular order)

" Wow, she is damn beautiful! Oh what I'll do to get her face?!"
" Hmm, I'll love to live in that house. How much does that cost?"
" So LOVE her dress/shoes/tattoo/etc."
" Those bloggers are truly awesome. They could do photography, modelling, designing, styling, and all sorts of cool stuffs!.....What?? They are younger than me??!"
" Wow, these pictures were very well taken...why couldn't I do the same?"
" This movie is nice! Hmm...if I could act~~"
" Why don't I have a goal?"
" Look at how happy those friends were. I wish we could play in the river and have someone professional take pictures of us. I wonder how will it turn out!"
" The phrase is so pretty! I'm so gonna put it in my pm!"
" If I had someone to share my love to...."

Huh...Well, it turns out I'm a very self-centred and depressing girl. Kind of contradicting though.

2010-04-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

It’s a sudden thought while I was browsing through the Populars Non-fictional section.

I was wondering what I’m doing, what I want to do, what I plan on doing. A book I saw was a story about this two women who wanted to plan a child protection programme. One of them had just won a case on her abusing stepfather, and the other one had a daughter who had been murdered. Another one was about this orphan who had to live from home to home and wanted to runaway. She don’t know about ‘love’ and kept on running from country to country till she came to Cambodia. There, she saw a purpose and aimed to build orphanage and help those who are what she had been.

Two of my best friends already had in mind on what they wanted to achieve and how to do it. The way they say it, I felt inferior. I had never been able to do anything. To be exact, I had never been able to finish what I’ve started. When I was young, I wanted to learn piano and I had the fortune to start learning at 9. However, I did not bother to practice at home. Right now, I’m still stuck at a grade 4 theory and grade 2 practical. I like to do lots of things, I like lots of subjects. But if I like too much stuffs, I tend to do it all at once and in the end, nothing was done successfully.

What exactly am I trying to do? In my mind, I had a “default” dream that I want to be. I had a “default” reason for it too. But, if I were to really want this dream, why am I not doing anything to achieve it? Am I all-talk-no-action type of person? In my years since I could remember, that is what I am. Do I really dream to achieve that goal or did I lie to myself that that is what I want to be? After years of supposedly lying to myself, I can’t remember if that was what I truly wanted.

I don’t have a specific dream job. I’m flexible enough. But, that also means that there is nothing I’m really good at. So when someone asks, how could I reply? I can’t. I had nothing.

Everything interests me, everything fascinates me. I wanted to try everything. It is because of that I had no idea what I truly wanted. After all, life is so short….

2010-03-20T23:20:00.001-07:00

ARGG! Damn persistent! If she is gonna be my colleague I'm so not gonna hear the end of it! I've been called by your company like N times already? Why is your tone like that? Direct bus? There is no stinkin' direct bus to that stinkin' place! You think I had not checked it last year? Stupid me for not countering at that....and here I thought I missed out something! Should had ask you about my direct bus! Damn it Damn it Damn it! And I was so happy to "hear the last of" you guys last year.....I really regret doing that STUPID survey!!

Ah~I'm done ranting....felt a little better now.

Had not been feeling good lately. I think my sarcasm had reached another level again. Eudy, I'm sorry if you are offended by me, I truly am! (If anyone even read this post at all...)

OMG, my inner is still boiling. LOL.

Got back my results. Passed, haha. At least I passed...no As though. I even got a D for my Jap...talk about passion huh? My GPA for this semester is a bit higher than the last, so my overall had been pulled up. Great news isn't it? I really need to work extra hard in order to gain a average GPA of 3...if I ever want to get into a local uni.

Had this 1/2 OSG outing on Thurs. Sentosa was great! Pity it was drizzling and lingyu couldn't get wet...Had so much fun with the waves :) Oh! And not to forget I spent about $100 on products that "seemingly" meets the requirement of my sensitive skin (as said by the salesgirl). Am I perfectly sane or what?

I feel like I've made my life crazy....seriously crazy...

2010-03-05T05:17:00.000-08:00

It's been long since I've post.

Well, lets get started!

Okay, first up, the end of our first year in poly! Waaa! It had been very fast! To think just 2 years ago I was still in JC! Time passes so fast, yet felt so long ago. XD

Second semester had been quick and packed. Seems like time was never enough. I had so much fun with everyone, and now our class had been more bonded. I hate the idea that we'll have to split during year 3 :(

Though it saddens me to say that I couldn't go Wuhan, I still got a part-time job at NP from 10 Mar till 16 Mar, plus two more days from the end of March till the start of April. I'm gonna earn lots!! Good Luck to me!!!

Oh! Plus, I've planned an April trip back to Taiwan with BaoBao, not confirmed...but still very excited about it! XD

On 3rd March I went to Soo Ching and Sharlynn's Birthday Party at a chalet in Changi. Since my skin was still not recovered, I wore a turtle-neck long sleeved black top, a waist black dress, black leggings and with a finishing touch, a black high-heeled boots to their party. I was so dark that I try to minimise the gloominess by adding a silver necklace and a brown waist belt......it turn out to be Gothic...-.-'''

The only thing missing is black/blood red lipstick and extreme eye-liner! I was quite afraid I was too over-dressed. Should had just stick to shorts...then again, my legs had the rashes too....:(

Hmmm... Holiday plans? Lets see....

Making of Cosplay costumes!
Finding the wigs
Re-do Jap notes (BJ102 was horrible!!)
Work 10-16/31-1 in NP (9am-6pm)
Work in MC....every 2 weeks?
Taiwan trip in April....?
Outing with OSG (when all returns...i wonder~~)
New hairstyle? Still thinking...:P
Outing with Eudy and Min (When will u guys be having Hols?!)
Outing with Pri Sch Trios?
Finish reading "The Memory Keeper's Daughter" ( very nice!)
Watch "Alice in the Wonderland" 3D movie!!

Woah! Lots of questions marks there! Apparently, I didn't really think about what I want to do this hols :P

One thing is certain. I did a lot of sleeping-ins and manga reading in this one-week of holiday so far. (My complexion is back!)

2010-02-19T18:21:00.000-08:00

I tried to start my revision but no luck...

I just can't seems to study!

I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying I'm dying

I opened my Maths textbook and thought, "I'm hungry...I should go eat..."

Then after that I went, "I should go rest awhile...just 10 mins will do..."

(2 hours had passed)

"Oh my...I'm sleepy...I'll do that tomorrow then!"

......

SHIT!

2010-02-01T03:26:00.000-08:00

I'm really pissed with what is happening....
What's wrong with having a T Passport? Why do I have to be kicked out of the OIP? It is not like I'll plant a boom in that school or sabotage the facilities or something. Or am I a spy?
I find it stupid.

No problem, not that I care. I've decided, I don't need that trip. I can spend that time to go back to Taiwan, earn more money or even get to go Japan!
I don't need it, seriously....

What I don't get is that, what does nationality have to do with STUDYING in the country? I choose to spend money there....they don't want it? Their loss.
I'm not gonna BEG them to take me in. There's no point, I'll only be looked down.
I still want my dignity. I still have my pride. I will not change nationality.
Call me stubborn, but I'm a proud Taiwanese!

2010-01-22T04:39:00.000-08:00

I'm Officially Heartbroken....

I wanna run away from love, this time I have had enough.
Every time I feel your touch, I'm broken...
Shattered all pieces and parts, never thought I'd fall this hard.
I'm putting back together my heart, its broken...

--Leona Lewis [Broken]

What is this? The feeling is coming back again.
I never had mutual love, so had never understand the feeling of being in love.
Even so, when a 0.01% turns 0, it hurts....
It hurts so much....

I know it's gonna take some time to realise
I've got nothing left inside, nothing to hide
I'm broken....

2010-01-16T10:19:00.000-08:00

I wanna thank Teo Ling Yu for the message in her blog!
"THANKS OSG FOR BEING SO CARING AND HELPING TO
TAKE NOTE OF WHAT'S GOING ON FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS!!!ESPECIALLY JOYCE LEU YU
HSUAN!!I REALLY MISS U LIKE CRAZY FOR THESE DAYS!!!U ARE A GREAT FRIEND AND I
WOULD NEVER WANNA TO LOSE U!!!XD "
Was so touched!!! Miss Ya Too!!
(p.s. Pink Pink Pinky! :p)

2010-01-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

This sucks....Stupid Sissy just had to choose this time to change our group, right now, at the busiest time of the month!
I was so ready to do that project,but he just had to smack me in the face with the "You all will have to change groups for this assignment. And it mustn't have anyone in the same group as you before!"
This hasn't been a good week for me. Hope this is the worst week of the year, cos I really can't take anymore bad news....

Monday, Bad News 1 & 2: IPC, Failed (smack) + Maths, Sadded....(smack)
Tuesday, Bad News 3: Thermo, Failed (smack) ( 1 of the only 2 in class T-T)(smack smack)
Wednesday, Bad News 4: ComT Grp had to be changed...(smack smack smack smack)

I was damn depressed on Thurs (yesterday)...
Had to go for a night walk to cool down. Felt a bit better :)
With so much things going on, I just hope I don't get white hair now....

There was this two diploma plus programs : Maths & Chemistry
Honestly, there's no way I'll qualify...And even if I did, I don't think I could juggle my Jap, core modules and that diploma plus... Plus, I still want my September holidays!

Now, my bro just gets on my nerves...I'm very touchy these few days, so it could be my wrong, but now I just feel really really irritated. Apparently I'm just not too used to being stressed up, hope I can just calm down a bit...

I think I'll go out for a night-walk today too....

2010-01-01T01:41:00.001-08:00

I want to thank TYL for this post....

First of Jan 2010...I was too lazy to even post something. But thanks to you (yes you, TYL!) I got my first post in 2010, which begins and ends with "lilili?"

I'll just do an all-rounder then. I don't think I'll be posting much these days. Am feeling very very emo now that I had two of my papers back... (this is 11 jan btw, the second Monday since school-reopen).
For maths, I did badly compared to the average! 2 more stinkin' marks and I get an A! Furthermore, 10 marks careless mistake!! I really wanted to bang the wall....seriously!
For IPC, I failed...I knew this will happen not because I knew I didn't study hard enough, but because today I'm having bad luck.
I woke up at 7.15 today thinking that its still Sunday and was very confused as to why Kate was calling me so early in the morning. The conversation went abit like this:

"Hello?"
"Eh, Joyce! Where are you now?"
(paused for 3 seconds) "SHIT! "

Ya...so Kate had to go to school all by herself...(SORRY KATE!)
Initally I wanted to wake up at 4am to do my Maths tutorial, but then I overslept (and will continue on if Kate hadn't gave me that morning call). I SMS Lihui saying that I will fail IPC because I had this bad luck coming at me, and.....we have a winner!
.....So damn depressed...its 8 credits!!!

Okay, lets talk about more happy stuffs:)

The first week of school= nothing much to do.
We had the open house from Thurs to Sat, and this will be the first time I'm happy that I'm in NP's LSCT.....cos we do not have to study for those days! XD (Come on, feel the jealousy! :P) Plus, since Mr "Sissy" was still having holiday in heaven-knows-where, I've got another extra day off! (except for the Jap at 6pm)

Thursday: Kate, Shiyi, Lihui, Lingyu, Crystal, and me were helping out in some biopharm stuff for the open house. A few of us had to stay inside the Clean Room to do some protein making thing... Ya, why call it the "Clean" room? Why, because it damn-it white and we all have to wear astronaut costume with mask, lunch-lady cap and high flat boots! Then we were kept there like zoo animals, "performing" the act of boredom. Well, it beats standing outside and talk to the sec sch students about what on earth is behind that glass window. Then, since we were all masked and unrecognisable, we all waved crazily at the passer-bys to get more attention to our booth. It worked. During the second shift, Lihui and Kate switched with Lingyu and Shiyi and entered the room. They were shouting and singing to pass the time thinking that the room was sound-proofed (which later I found out, it wasn't). Lihui even swore loudly at some of the students who were kinda rude when we waved at them 0.0...

Friday: Was actually a free day, only planning to go school at 5pm to meet up to buy the cloth for SOYB. I was having breakfast outside when Dabie suddenly called to ask where am I. I told her I don't have class that day, she swore :P Wenyuan planned to go NP open house so I told her I'll be there once I've finish my meal, since I'm going to sch anyway. In the end, I went to school, came back home, ate Pizza Hut and went to school again, since it was still early. We went to buy the cloth of the plaited skirts and apron for the cafe. At first, I regretted going, since there was nothing much we could do. However, after that we went to Dhoby Ghaut MRT and ate dinner. That place is NICE! Free flow of ICECREAM and DRINKS! I would had ate more ice cream if I've not felt bloated. We went to arcade and I'm sort of got addicted to it. Really enjoyed it!
Reached home at about 12.10am....it was a wonder why I didn't get scolded...:P

Sunday: Went Ken's house for the sewing machine! Most of the cafe helpers went there and intruded his house. It was my first time making clothes and I felt so excited to wear it on the actual day! (though I didn't actually sew it, but hey! I cut, pin, and iron the skirt! XP) I hope we can bring it home.....Went back with JieSi at 9.30om yesterday. We both agreed that we are more bonded with the seniors now:P

Can't wait for the Loft during SOYB! But first, there's still the ComT and IPC projects.....
AIM FOR A!!!

2009-12-21T00:07:00.000-08:00

Just a random note....THIS IS THE 100th POST! :P

Went to Lingyu's birthday party on Sat. Actually had planned to fly kites..but unfortunately, there was the heavy downpour, so we went to bowl. It was rather fun! XD

I've cut my fringe! Through Min's advice, I didn't re-permed my hair...so the total cost for my hair cut was $17.
I think I looked weird, but my mum said it's ok. My bro even said that it looks the same! LOL
OSG got the chance to see it first hand tmr!

Can't wait for the Secret Santa! I wanna open my present tmr! XD XD

2009-12-12T08:38:00.000-08:00

I very much wanna "CHANGE" my hair.....

Things I wanna do:

~~Make notes for the 4 modules~~
~~Memorise MBio~~
~~Can't wait for my Common Test to be over~~
~~Cut hair/ Re-Perm it / Cut bangs / Simply just change it!!!~~
~~Buy Present~~
Make Costume for SOYB
~~Outing~~
~~Secret Santa~~
Another outing (hopefully class outing)
~~Open House~~
SOYB-Cafe :P
Collect HONGBAO!!

Busy Busy Busy!

Actually,...all would be over soon enough....Time passes so fast!

2009-12-05T09:36:00.000-08:00

It's the time of year again.....
The return of those unsaid, unwanted feelings.
Why must I feel it EVERY SINGLE YEAR??!

I hate my life...getting crankier by the minute.
I apologise to my friends and family, they will have to put up with me :P
SORRY!!

"不怕记不住，只怕忘不了。"-- It's not the matter of forgetting, but to remember...

It had been circling inside my head

2009-11-26T22:43:00.000-08:00

Went for AFA on Sunday... Though the entry fee was quite a waste since there's nothing much to see there except ppl wowing over the figurines and toys that could make real sushi (which I was kinda fascinated by it :P)
We went to participate in a "children's" dumpling/sushi/doll making section. Since the sushi making slots have been fulled, we could only do the dumpling making...The dumplings were nice! XD But, Asykin can't eat it as it was pork :(
I could pass that as my lunch...but it was not enough...LOL
(Soo Ching later got her cousin to buy her a sweets making toy!)
Probably the most cash invested via the ticket fee was the chance to see KANAME live! Really, from where I was seating (and it was rather at the front), his face is flawless! It might be make-up or such...but it looks naturally spotless and smooth!
**I wanna learn that kind of professional make-up!!**
After that, Asykin and Huimin accompanied me to Far East to see if there is the Shinku costume...It was there, and I tried it on. It looks nice but the skirt length was a bit short, so Asykin suggest that I order it. Paid the deposit...so most probably would be getting the costume next year XD
Can't wait!!!

Oh, and did I say I'm officially going to WuHan next year for OIP?
I really Can't Wait for next year to come!!

Btw,
Congrats to Chloe "Pederson" Shi Min! XD
Yeh, you know why...:P

2009-11-20T01:58:00.000-08:00

It's been long since I've posted anything in this pathetic blog -.-

Woo, let's start with yesterday...
NP had a great flood yesterday! (Though I wasn't there to see..>: ) Heard that the atrium, pond, top floor of the library, and the lower floor of the convention centre were flooded. Lectures at the CC had to be cancelled due to that (lucky them :P)
The best thing was, there was a new attraction created at the Makan Place due to the heavy rain....The "Waterfall through the lighting on the ceiling"!
I heard it was because the water pipes located just above the lighting burst. It's still a wonder to me why there wasn't a blackout!
For that, I was there....but not when there's the "Waterfall".

My friend said that he and his friends folded paper boats and placed it to float at the atrium....imagine that! (No wonder there were paper boats all over the place when I walked over the cleared up aftermath...)
It was due to this that I found out that NP had been very efficient. I mean, its been just a few hours when they clear up all the flood and clean the place. I even heard that there was a cockroach infested area where there were cocks EVERYWHERE! The cleaners took action and killed those with their brooms....or so I've heard...

Too bad I wasn't there to witness NP's Historical Moment! Sad~~~

I can't wait for March to come XD
I'll be going WuHan, China for OIP and would be there for 6 weeks. No FB though, since it would be banned over there.
I actually thought I couldn't go, since my GPA wasn't that to be proud of...or even average to begin with. Was really happy when my application got through XD

Oh well, before that, I'll look forward to OSG's Christmas party!! Still thinking what to buy... First time I'll be playing the "Secret Santa" game...
CAN'T WAIT!!

2009-11-03T00:37:00.000-08:00

Shit Shit Shit Shit Shit!!!!

Damn pissed right now
Mind blanked out,
Can't think anymore
Nervousness in a whole new level
and the teacher is on to us....

FML!

2009-11-02T07:01:00.000-08:00

I'm so sorry for not posting lately...(for those who even cared....)

I've been extremely, extremely, extremely lazy, so expect the next update be on the next month :P

Anyway, just to sum up what had happened....

1) I came back at 11th of Oct instead of the 8th and had spent 24hrs inside my house for that extra 3 days....(very nice...)

2) Got the last week before school starts off, from work.

3) Now I'm spending the third week since the school reopen....

Fast, ain't it?

Time flies.....before you know it, we would be having finals! (shoot...)

2009-09-30T10:17:00.000-07:00

I'll be leaving soon!

Be back at 8th, see ya! XD

(I'm at the airport!! =P)

2009-09-25T20:07:00.000-07:00

Came across this pics that I just have to show it on blog!

Disney had bought Spiderman....so:

What happens if Disney brought Mavel...

Sleeping Beauty /// Snow White

Pochontas /// Nala -Lion King 2

Mulan /// Jasmine - Aladdin

Jane - Tarzan /// Cinderella

Ariel /// Alice

All of this is so cool! I personally like Sleeping Beauty, Pocahontas, Jane, Nala and Snow White (guess that apple did do the trick:P)

Got it all from my Bro's English teacher's blog...haha! XD

2009-09-22T18:48:00.000-07:00

Just read a manga about a boy who had heart disease since 8 years old and his first love.
The girl's father was the doctor in charged of the boy and one day she overheard that he'll not last through 20. She cried.
Seeing her cry, the boy swore that he'll marry her when they turned 20, though at that time he had no idea that he could not fulfill that promise.

At 12, he heard about him not being able to live up till 20 and had this idea of committing suicide. However, the girl made him changed his mind.
He hates to see the girl cry because of him, so he decided to get into a school far away, so that they could not meet again. Unknown to him, she actually got first place and entered that same school, publicly declared that he "can't get rid of" her that easily. He tried very hard to ignore her, thinking that it was all for her own good. However, she wouldn't change her mind.

At 18, both of them tried to convince their parents to allow them to marry. With their fathers' approval and their mothers' surface disapproval, they married in the hospital, before the boy's operation.
Before he entered the operation room, the boy gave the girl a box. Within the box, which the girl later opened, contained a will the boy had written.
He said that he dreamt that they would get married at 20 in the temple they promised when they were 12. That girl would give birth and together, they would raise a family.

"However," the letter said, "if I failed to succeed, promise me. Please promise me, that you'll fulfill my wish of raising a family."

"Please fall in love again...."

The last scene ends with the girl with two children and an unknown father.

"...However, if fate permits. I would do anything, to keep our first love, going."

And that guy was shown to be the boy himself.

This story made me cried. There it is, someone who fought so hard for something, fought so hard to survive.
What was I doing? I felt ashamed.
This wasn't just a story, this could happen in real life...maybe without the happy ending.

What was I doing? I did nothing meaningful or, for the matter of fact, really enjoyable.

I admire the girl's courage, the boy's determination, and their ever-lasting relationship.
What was it like? I really have no idea.

I envy those who got to experience it.
Being in love, deeply...

2009-09-22T10:22:00.000-07:00

Ooo, long since I've blogged huh? Hehe... Then I'll just give a brief entry! XD

Sun (13/9) - Met up with Shiyi at Causeway to get back Dvd (cos my mum need to lend it to her friend) Got there earlier so went to buy bubble tea only to found out she already reached. So I accompanied her to Popular while finishing my drink. Very short meeting, but hey, its still nice XD
Oh and btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE!!

Mon (14/9) - Read Manga, Watch Anime, Chat on Msn....in other words...Slack

Tue (15/9) - Slack

Wed (16/9) - Met up with DaBi and Lyon at BBP to eat lunch. Walked around BBP, went to the library, Watson, NTUC and etc. It was fun! XD (Btw, the weather...can really kill! Lucky I didn't wear black! *Poor Dabie :P)

Thur (17/9) - Working, 11am till 6pm. Not many ppl...and it was freezing! Got the msn from min that she maybe not going to the sleepover, almost gave me a heartattack. Told Eudy about it...and she drown me with her colourful Fs and Cs.Then...it turned out that Min could go...Wonderful, just wonderful.

Fri (18/9) - Sleepover starts early in the morning at 10am! I did a morning call, eudy was still asleep when I was at her doorstep...opps:P
Branch at Fajar, and we brought bunch of snacks and rented vcds. Then, movies till 4am next morning!! XD
*Notebook really was touching, oh my gosh XD*
Thought I'll use up the tissues..in the end I never did cried in the movies... hahaha
Will love to show the photos..but then..still waiting for eudy to upload it...hehehe

Sat (19/9) - Went home at about 8pm or so..ate dinner with my bro and went home together with my mum.

Sun (20/9) - Working, 9am till 3pm. Thought I'll be working till 4pm..haha

Mon (21/9) - Actually was going out today, but the plan changed to Wed...so was slacking at home XD

Tue (22/9) - Slack... Btw, HAPPIE BIRTHDAY CHEWY!!!

Going back Taiwan on Oct 1st to Oct 8th...guess I'll be spending my first (if I'm able to recall) lantern festival there XD

2009-09-12T10:11:00.000-07:00

I came across this on some website, which I think its really cool!

Check this out...

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty

uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal

pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to arscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, theolny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl

mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm.Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raedervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Amzanig huh? Yaeh and I awlyas thought slpelingwas ipmorantt! tahts so cool!

Nice huh?

2009-09-04T10:38:00.000-07:00

Went to JTC Camp on 2nd Sep to 4th Sep.

Hui Min and I arrived 1 hr earlier...but because we thought we could go one round and end up at the bustop at NP, we took 75 all the way. (Our bag was too heavy, and we were too lazy to walk:P)
We took the detour all the way to Marina Square, not knowing that that was the last stop! Well, since we were already late, we figure that we should at least eat first. So...we ate at Marina Square's McDonald's. We then went back by MRT...taking from City Hall to Clementi.
This is so funny!

Pictures taken at Marina Square!

Well...We reached Loft about 3 hours late (after the Ice-Breaking section was over..Yes! ) When I entered our unit, I was EXTREMELY excited! OMG, It was like a penthouse all to yourself! Of cos, we shared it with 3 other people...which still had more than enough space! There were 3 rooms, two with twin beds and one with triple beds. It was Awesome! I kinda screamed when I saw Roxanne and my room (The one with a bigger closet and most importantly...its green!!)

Okay...after all that excitement, we were told to gather.

Our first activity- Mascot Making.

We were given cloth, newspaper and toilet roll to make a mascot....or design one. Our group got a wide pink cloth, and the team decided to dress a guy into "Hime-sama", meaning princess. (He had to get newspaper breast implant....) There are 6 groups all together...two of them did a "stuff-animal" kind of mascot and two dress their mascot as "Sparta"( You know the one with the spear and war-cry? Ya, that one...) and one even did a "Gundam"! The helmet was made out of toilet rolls and newspaper...in the end it won the mascot prize...LOL

Our dinner that day was Japanese curry!! I love that! I was so hungry that I took more rice than usual...end up many seniors couldn't get to eat rice T-T (I'm so so very sorry!!) I really wanted to have seconds...but the seniors looked like they didn't eat much, so I didn't dare.

After dinner, we were brought to a lecture hall and was shown a Thai horror movie "Shatter" ! OMG, I was so scared that I only watched 1/4 of the movie...while being inside! (Covered my eyes with my jacket..) The worst thing was...we have to go on a nightwalk straight after that!

When the movie was over, its our turn to go (have to be in pairs).

Roxanne and I went together... the first stop was to the lift. There was this person who was dressed as a deathbutler or something (with white gloves and suit) and he said, " This way, or would you rather take the stairs?". Roxanne was so scared that she said, "Neither!"

The deathbulter then thought for a while and replied, "Then, would you guys like to stay here? Forever?" I immediately said "No!" and pulled Rox to the lift... come to think of it, its kinda funny!

After that lift thing...we had to walk over to some room (and it was really a loooong way...) My gosh...what happened next was damn funny!

Roxanne knew some thing was gonna scare us, so she pulled me down so that the ppl in the room can't see us though the window, and we kind of ran to the end of the corridor. In the end, we had to get back in the room, cos there was this password that we had to collect!

Well, the room was extremely dark, with a path made by light sticks. I walked in first, holding Rox's hand, of cos. There was this box with tracing paper,and it had words written in pencil on it.

We were told to read it out loud. Since the words were hard to see, I had to go near it. When I finished the second word, suddenly a hand popped out and we screamed!

"Snap, Snap", and there was a flash. I kept on screaming even though I knew that photo was taken. It actually feel good! (Relieving stress :P)

The photo turn out extremely unglam!!

Anyway, we had to kept on walking to collect clues....on the way, we asked lots of questions,and those who came to scare us actually got fed up and answered us (They wanted to pretend they were not there...) We found out that it wasn't only us :P Many groups before us got lost. One even went through the whole walk and completed it the same time as us, when they were one of the last groups to be released!

The nightwalk had made the movie seems less scary...so I wasn't afraid anymore ^-^

Had Steamboat for dinner the next day... The longest dinner!! XD

CameraWhoring the night before 4th (were seriously very quiet...hahaha)

The Loft!

I missed the LOFT!!! I wanna go back there again!!

2009-08-29T22:36:00.000-07:00

If I could choose a boyfriend, I would want his talent to be photography.
That way, he could capture all the beautiful moments, and memories would be kept forever.

I had this image of “him” taking candid pictures, in those I’ll see all the truth and the fake I would appear in “his” eyes. So that I could see myself; my true self.
Beautiful memories would always create painful memories…I’ll always believe that. That is, how I’m feeling now. Who knows, maybe "he" ’ll change that fact?

If you appear, please let me know.
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In movies, in dramas, in mangas... all the images I had of friendship, of bonding, were all so wonderful,
all so fun,
all so dreamy,
all so far away.

I envy those actors, those characters. I had great friends, best friends…but we could not have that kind of bonding.

Or so I thought…

Those scenes I saw, playing together at the lake, flying lanterns with our dreams, on a train trip without caring where we are going, playing with fireworks and stay up late together… , all those seemingly normal get-togethers. We don’t have those… so we couldn’t have those kinds of fun.
But we have our own kind of bonding.

We chatted together. We laughed. We had fun.

In just a months, or weeks… I had best friends that seems like they had been there for years . “True friends” are no longer a fantasy to me. I believed what I had doubt for many years before.

I hope that our friendship can continue on. I really don’t want to lose you guys.

And that, was from the bottom of my heart XD

OMG...All this are VERY Cheesy....Was being emotional, you can ignore :P

2009-08-25T23:56:00.000-07:00

Finally, one more paper to go!

Was getting really depressed yesterday and couldn't get that feeling off even after I've slept.
I guess I was too nervous.

Funny thing about the maths paper was that out of the 15 chapters, only a few really came out. My friends were very pissed as they spent lots of time reviewing the last few (killer) chapters. Well, it wasn't that hard on me. I crammed my last minute revision (did finished the notes) and printed out last year's paper. In the end, when we have that 2mins reading time, I found out that some of the qns were exactly the same as last year! I was damn happy when the qn I asked came out and I knew how to do. (Was smiling all the way :P)

Anyway, remembering the maths formula took up most of my memory space...so I was really tired after maths. It was OBC next and I really wanna study... end up slacking and sleeping anyways.
It was about 10.30pm when I started cramming again. At that time, I was already feeling very depressed.
Felt like giving up. But I tried my best....did my best...

The obc paper was ok...for me, while others said it was easy. I think I could pass this module. Don't wanna repeat this stupid module again.
Time-wasting, memory-wasting and psychologically-wasting....(if that even makes any sense...)

Well, I don't feel like doing anything now, even though I still have IntroCB left and it is the module that I had failed, throughout ( I've passed a quiz and the retest...other than that, I'm guessing its an U grade T-T)

But, hey! Two more days and I'm free!!!
Just thinking of that made my heart so much lighter XD

2009-08-13T03:39:00.000-07:00

The 'Coke-buying' Adventure

I was asked to buy coke for my mum. It couldn't be my bro cos his tuition teacher is coming in about 2 more minutes. So, I'm the only one left to do the work.

Not locking the door, I went to the first floor and found out that the vending machine near the tennis court (nearest to my block) was crowded with ppl playing table tennis. Being the naturally-born-crowd-hater, I took a detour to the next block....by going through the B1 carpark (since the heat was killing me).
Went up to that vending machine to find out that the 50 cent coins my mum gave me was invalid...So, I went walking all the way back to the first vending machine.
It so happens that (luckily) the table tennis players are gone. I brought the Coke and was ready to head home.

It was just another day of buying drinks...

Surprisingly, once I reached my house door, I tried to push it but it just wouldn't open. I saw my bro's tuition teacher's shoe and the thought came to me: My bro had lock the door.
Since it was just going down to buy a drink, I didn't bother to bring my keys nor my handphone with me. Our door bell was spoiled (for a long time already...my dad just didn't change it), my dad was out and wouldn't be back till tonight, my bro was having tuition in his room, my mum was resting in hers.
No one could hear me banging the door...

Wonderful.

I have no idea how much time had passed...I didn't bring my watch either. I got tried of waiting, so I just opened that can of coke that was supposedly for my mum. I stood at the opening next to my house and "enjoyed the view while drinking coke" ( which actually has nothing to see cos its blocked by the block directly in front of mine).

I got bored enough to re-read a few times on the nutrition section of the can. ( You know, the new coke can have the "Smile is worth a thousand words" slogan? It was damn funny when I saw the "made by the happy people from XXX factory in XXX....product created by the delighted XXX company" and etc....it was so FUNNY!)

Anyway, my neighbour came in and out a lot of times but I was too hard-headed to ask for help...(partly cos we were in a bad start when they moved in. Those ppl came from China and were renting that unit. Furthermore, I don't really know them, so I was embarrassed by the fact that I got locked out...) I even pretended that I was out there for fun, and it was not a big deal at all. I even smiled at them when they walked pass, when in fact I was debating inside my head on whether I should ask for a phone...which in the end I didn't.

Excellent.

I thought about what I should do. I went down to the 1st floor again, thinking that maybe I'll just sit there and wait for a while. They'll eventually find out that I'm gone.
I walked around my block, realising that those seats were either taken or directly opposite of the one taken. So.... I went back up again. I bang the door a few more time. This time, I really couldn't take it anymore.

I walked all the way to Lot 1, to my parent's store, to borrow phone from one of their workers there. My mum was so shocked hearing my voice from that worker's phone. She even went "Hello?" the second time.
Finally, I can enter my house again.

Nice...

Apparently my mum did notice how long I was taking to buy that one can of coke. Then, she thought, maybe I didn't wake her up cos she was resting and I just place it in the fridge.
She told me that I could actually just go to the guard house to ask for a phone....
-_-'''
(In the end, she had to go down herself to replace that can of coke I drank..)

What an afternoon!!

2009-08-07T20:39:00.000-07:00

She received the news about her father's flight...
Lost, they said, disappeared...
The family waited anxiously at home. 1 day, 2 days, 3 days....a week had passed until they got a call that her father was found....dead.
Devastated, the family was.

A few days had passed and she was somewhere when she received another depressing news.
Her mother and brother had passed away due to some poison, from a terrorist attack....most probably...
They were somewhere together...but suddenly, they just disappeared...
The girl was shocked....couldn't think straight...
neither could she cry...
the news just came in a little too hard.
She just couldn't bare to look at their already cold bodies...
for fear she might just lose it...

It was still fresh, the memory.
One moment she still had someone...
another, she lost it all...
She was all alone, an orphan...
the "survivor".
Too sudden...its all too sudden...

As she sat on the train, thinking about how its just like yesterday,
when her family were having fun together.
Yes.....its was just like yesterday....
Hot tears rained down her cheeks....
not caring how the others were talking about her
and her already swollen-red eyes...

Went back to her home town, home country...
preparing the black parade...
she wore a light pink top, and a pair of casual jeans...
her family would want to see her cheerful...like always...

She stared at her reflection
expression, emotion....numbed...
oh yes...her family would want her to be cheerful...like always...
she tried to smile...
but even a little grin comes on too hard..

She broke down once more......

I had dream this, and was crying when I woke up.
Tears had dried up around my eyes...
The dream was like a month to me, too real and too sudden.
When I woke up, I went out of my room and checked...
My parents were still sleeping and my brother is still there.

You have no idea how relieved and thankful I was....

This goes to show...too much sleep is not exactly THAT wonderful...

2009-07-26T20:44:00.000-07:00

Gosh, I has been long since I've updated...and I'm in SCHOOL!

Haha, okok, back to topic....where should I start from...?

17/7 (Fri)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BRO AND EUDY!
I know it came a LITTLE bit too late to be posted here...but yeh, I still wished an on-time birthday to u both!

My family went to eat buffet in celebration of my bro's Bday...Eat a lot of Sashimi and GreenTea ice cream that night. My bro made design on his Chocolate chip Icecream. He added the Chocolate from the "fountain" and half a strawberry. (Apparently the strawberry is really for decoration as he gave it to my mum -_-)

My bro had his eye on some Multiplayer Xbox 360 game called Guitar Hero and really wanted it that he traded this year's Birthday, Christmas and next year's birthday present for it. Brought it on the spot, $270++.

The package consist of a guitar, drum set and microphone.. (all..of cos.. fake). Its like a bigger version of DJ Max, meeting the beat by hitting the drum or by strumming the guitar.

Honestly, It was fun XD

18/7 (Sat)

Went to a Concert with my family; a Chinese rock concert by SUPER BAND. The band members were mostly famous Solos at their time. Most people over there were middle-ages, much like my parents' age. It was no surprise...cos their songs were famous at that time....Well, at first my bro was complaining as we seems to be the only adolescents present there. Then again, the songs were nice:) Call me an oldie I don't mind, cos those song are like timeless...

I almost went deaf that night...

I'm done with the updatin....u know...i finally finished this post on 8 Aug?

Wow....

2009-07-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

I really wanna write about something but it seems too much to write and I gotta rush my CATs project, and then go to bed....so yup, will update when I find the time.

Meanwhile just enjoy the pictures posted (not even some blog music to entertain the blog viewers..I'm terribly sorry.)

Well, さよなら～！

2009-07-12T07:03:00.000-07:00

Went to Cosfest today XD

Took MRT from Joon Koon to Paris Ris.....omg, from one end to the other! Furthermore, cos we waited on the MRT for so long...Soo Chang and I can't go out and we end up paying $2+!

Gladys actually wore this and board the MRT...everyone was staring at her! Some were rather rude...(but she didn't mind)
Cool right?! I love the sleeves!

This is SO CUTE! This little guy was standing outside and was accompanied by his mother or something...The youngest one I've seen in the event! HAHAHA!

For more pics, check out my facebook :D (cos too many to put it here....I'm too lazy:P)

Click here!

2009-07-03T22:50:00.000-07:00

Eh....so many stuffs...
Been slacking (no surprise there...), so I'll just update a bit with pics!

Before getting to the Victoria Concert Hall. Actually thought we were late as we got lost in the mid-way, only to found out that the building is just right in front of us....
-_-...
(Taken at the bridge)

Chuyi (left pic) and Yanling(right pic). I wanna take a pic there!!! Love the interior design, love the red carpet!

In the theatre, during the intermission. The song chosen by the guitar band was so nice! The guiter band wise.....er...let's just say some are playing a little too fast....
(KangRong, the guy in the middle, was one of the performers{not the guitar band})

After the performance, we went to eat...however, since most shops were closed, we bought KFC/BK and went to the terrace to have "picnic". Woo, wind-y!

Got home at about 12am....cool.......

2009-06-26T06:46:00.000-07:00

Wow...how long has it been since my last post? Lol...I think I better get started then...

Tue (23/6)

Class outing at East Coast Park! Love the wind, the beach, the BBQ (First successful one I had in years!) You know what else? I rode a double bicycle! Haha, it was so cool! Since I wasn't the one in front (don't know how to ride...) it was rather comfortable :P Sorry if I'm too heavy!
Eh, after bbq, we played some games. I forfeited and thus had to go to a group of guys and ask them for a high-five (really scary...I've never done this before....). The guys went "Huh?" Then looked at me as if I was crazy. (luckily) One guy told his friend "Its truth or dare, go on go on", so his friend high-fived me. Whoever you are, I gotta say, thank u thank u thank u!
It was about 10 plus already when we ended. Then we waited with Chuyi for her friend until 11plus pm. Some of the ppl with us took taxi home while we walked to the bustop. Funny thing is, because it was too late, two buses that we are suppose to take went pass us as "Not in service" as there were not enough passengers! In the end, we waited till the last bus was gone....We had to take a cab home, it was already 12plus am...
Shiyi and I took one while Chuyi,Yanling, KangRong and his friend took another. I was dropped off first and wa la! Arrival: 1.20am (Although Shiyi's would be later...)
Surprisingly, I was let off easy....my parents weren't even angry! (strange....)

Thurs (25/6)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIMIN!!

Yups, we went to watch Transformers: Rise of the fallen in Lot1...was really in the rush. Had go to school before that. Min bought the ticket first and then found out I was running late, real sorry! Still I made it XD The movie was real nice; had an uncle who sat beside me eating bananas, lol! And after that, he even left it under his seat! That was totally random...
Went to Ajisen after that, lucky there was the student meal...(haha, or else I wouldn't be able to pay....) I gave Min her present,a Gossip Girl novel (really glad that u like it XD). We sat there and chat, oh ya, forgot to say, Thanks for lending the Twilight DVD! It is clearer than online:P
Ah..then we went to Senja to pass my GC to Pei....she couldn't watch the movie with us cos she needs to meet up with her aunt. Chatted at the gate before going back home....

Well...I think thats about it...
Heh...the holidays are passing so quickly...I didn't even study my Jap!

2009-06-11T05:45:00.000-07:00

FINALLY OVER!!!! WOOHOOO!!!

So lets recall what happen this week:P

Mon-
Electrotech : Still Surviving
Its like Physics, but with only circuit current and stuffs. It reminds me of D&T... Ah~ the mugging during O-Levels.....the skipping of practicals....good times, good times...

Tue-
Engineering Maths : Revived
Probably the only module I had most faith in (So far...for how long I'm not sure). Too bad I couldn't do A-Maths in Secondary (Shit them....)

Wed-
IntroCB : Dying
All the formulaes are driving me crazy. Though the paper was kinda ok; if I had studied hard enough....I might or might not pass, I don't know...let the wind decide the course, but I do not place much hope....

Thurs-
OrganicBio : Dead
Didn't study, barely browse through..... for the module that requires the most memory space and time, if this happens....haha, sayonara and good luck, man...

Yup, thats about it... the Common test

---Dream---
I had this weird dream during my common test period ( which is weird cos normally people at this time would dream of flying maths textbooks or teacher stamping a giant 'F' on test papers...)
Its about Edward (yes, the all-so-perfect-Twilight Edward). I dream that he confessed to me and we went on like we knew each other for many years. Laughing, cheering for him (the Edward in my dream was in the Baseball team), and eating dinner together. It felt almost real and as if I was playing the role of Belle. Though, he was no Vampire...just a normal guy (a bit disappointing, really:P) So you could imagine how perfect it was...
Sadly, as usual, it was just a dream....

It's funny actually...was it an after-effect of watching Twilight?
If it is, I wouldn't mind watching it again,..... seriously!

2009-06-06T02:57:00.000-07:00

I shouldn't really be blogging since my common test is NEXT WEEK....but, what the heck...I'm slacking anyway:P (Shit, really gotta buck up..)

We took pictures yesterday before we went for maths, quite a few actually. Lihui was the CameraWoman for the day, so the pics were fantastic!=D

I'm telling you, the next one is Classic!

The return of The Ring!

Nominated for Best Picture Award

2009-05-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

The price is settled....sort of....

$195- Costume
$100- 100cm Yellow Wig
Both of really high quality. Heard that its really worth it as if I brought it else where, it would be much more expensive and in sucky quality...

Whats still missing:
= Blue Contacts
= Mary-Jane shoe (can be free, just have to modify mum's)
= White stockings

....Shoot...
I'm gonna be broke soon, have to work and work and work!!!! Ganbette neh!

Working on Sat and Sun, 9am to 5pm (apparently there is an event during this two days...)

2009-05-25T06:55:00.000-07:00

I gotta thank my lecturer....thank him for letting me lose control over TWILIGHT!

He showed us a clip from Twilight today, actually wanting us to hear the song by Muse ( The part when the Cullens were playing baseball). Then I was like, damn it, I really really want to watch it now.
I was initally going to control myself, from going online to watch it; planning to buy it after the ridiculously high price was on discount....but (obviously) I lost my cool today and the first thing I did when I reached home was to switch on my laptop, plug in the internet cable, go search for Twilight and load the movie.
I'm telling you, it was totally worth it! (Although I'm just saying that cos I hadn't read the book...I gonna read it after Common test)

Paramore's Decode is fantastic. Can't get it off my mind.....

2009-05-21T06:48:00.000-07:00

Sorry,hadn't been updating lately. Was really lazy...

Wanna say that I'm busy in my studies, but sadly, I'm not. I'm more busy in my school activities and (last-minute) homework, plus of-course the internet :P

Argg....My OrganicBio, IntroCB and Electrotech!!! Need much more time to study! So much to do, so little time... Whats better: Jap Speaking Test next week!

We finally finished our project. During the presentation, we actually wore formal wear...which was not really requested by the teacher and we end up being praised because all the other groups were wearing their S&W shirts -_-...
Our group was also the first to present and we spend lots of time doing the activities, which means that the other groups had to rush through...(sorry about that..)
It was really funny being so co-ordinated, I mean, we just said "Okay, we would wear formal wear" and we ended up having 3 wore black and 3 wore white/light blue that looks like white...Whats more, each of the 3-man team has a guy.
We didn't plan it, I assure you, but it was seriously freakishly coincidental!

Finally got my character in cosplay, Shinku from Rozen Maiden. The one with the red Victorian Lolita style =D
We actually found all 8 Dolls for the Rozen Maiden group! Going for the Cosfest next month....I think... So excited! XD
The costume was expensive, but it was expected. Plus the wig (which is extremely long) I guess it would be about $140, tops. Lucky I'm still working....I definitely would not get a single cent from my parents for this.
Eh, I wonder if I'll look okay in it....

2009-05-15T05:11:00.000-07:00

I finally got my Lappy back!!!!

2009-05-11T07:53:00.000-07:00

Ah...some much to blog about...
Okie, starting from my birthday then..

8th may

Went to Jurong island and took pics before that :P

(2nd row from left) Kate, Lihui, LingYu, Me, ChuYi
(Sat down) ShiYi, Yanling

It was kind hot over there and the lecturer scared us about the internship we are going for during our year 3. Apparently, many regretted after hearing the presentation. (I didn't feel anything, too tired to feel any stress at all...)

Some went back to school and others went home. Both of the groups took different buses which either drive us to back school or to the Boon Lay MRT station. (and ours, one towards mrt, has the least people)

Reached home at about 5 or so...Surf the net for awhile..but still very sleepy....Went out for my birthday dinner with my family when I suddenly got a call from the Mcafe' saying that they need me to stand in for one of the person who didn't come. It was friday night so they were kind of desperate. So after dinner I quickly went back home and iron my uniform (which was not ironed as I thought I was having an off-week). Went to work for about 2 hours (9.45pm to 11.30pm) then came back just in time for my birthday cake (It was still the 8th).
I was dozing off after I finished my piece of the cake and was really tempted to just jump onto my bed and sleep. However,.....I had not bathe yet...(oh darn)
And I missed My Ghost Whisperer!! (Damn it! And it was guest-starring Hillary Duff! T,T)

9th May

Went out with Pei, Min and Bao in the afternoon. It was a totally fast decision made overnight that Pei didn't know we were having lunch together and Min didn't know we were watching a movie! (Watched X-men: The Origin. It was fantastic! So cool! Manage to watch it the 2nd time on the same day with my family, which was, as usual, the night movie.)

They gave me this really cute lamp with a square head XD
Thank you guys! I really miss you all!!

10th May

Nothing much was done here except for homework, sleep, surf net and more homework (with in-between eating :P)

11st May

Don't have IntroCB or OrgBio today so we could all sleep-in late. So the whole day was only Maths and more Maths (Whoppy~~). I got a really shock when ShiYi suddenly gave me a small bag with my birthday present!
This, I could really say, I didn't see that coming! I thought the birthday cake was already good enough, and they went and bought me a necklace and a bracelet that looks expensive! Both presents were totally adorable! (Especially the Angel necklace and the Star bracelet....what the heck, I love them both!)

It is kinda wierd cos we met like just 1 months ago and already you guys had got me so much things that I never really experienced in most of my birthdays. I may have said this thousands of time but I'm gonna say it all over again:
Thank You Girls So Much and I Love U All!!

2009-05-08T02:51:00.001-07:00

Happy
Birthday
To me!

2009-05-07T07:49:00.000-07:00

OMG! Thank you guys SO MUCH for the birthday cake! I really was quite surprised!

My Cake!!

Actually it is suppose to be tomorrow but because of the trip tml to Jurong Island, my classmates actually planned the birthday treat today! See how nice they are?
Haha, today we had a 3 hours break and three of them said they needed to photocopy something (which was true) and proceed to the Atrium. The other four of us were suppose to "book" some place in Our Space. Everything was fine and I didn't suspect anything at all until they came back looking all so suspicious... :P
The giveaway was when Kate suddenly ran to the "toilet".
Haha! But overall it was totally surprising and awesome! I never really experienced this before; with all my friends celebrating with me in school :)
Really thank you guys! I couldn't ask for a better birthday present!

Btw, I'm not working on saturday anymore :)
*Manager gave me the week off!*

2009-05-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

This is crazy....I'm literally gonna drown with all the used tissue papers!
I'm not feeling so good...

And its not Swine Flu!

2009-05-05T04:22:00.000-07:00

My laptop is still not fixed yet....

Went for the StageArt Group and it was rather interesting....Should say, its "The One "! haha!
The members there are extremely talented, most of them from China, with the accents and everything. The instructor was also great, asking us to act out something with a dustbin and a thermometer (a fold able chair and a water bottle respectively). I didn't get to do mine...I regret not going out sooner :(
Anyway, he asked us to form into groups of 6 and think of a venue. We suggested a park, but the instructor suddenly switched the venues between the groups. We had to make do with a yoga club instead. The funniest thing was, one group actually suggested a brothel and another group had to act with it. They had this plot where a (regular) customer got AIDs and wanted to sue that brothel....or something like that....The "mama-san" was acted by a guy and his action and stuff are all extremely hilarious!
It ended at 9 and we were all so tired...

Though I hadn't made any friends yet, I'll sure like to make some next week! =)

P.s. I'm working on sat again 9am to 1pm ( my manager actually allowed me to have the week off ...but someone took leave... so..yeh)

2009-05-01T01:48:00.000-07:00

^&*%^(&^&#$%#$ &%^&#$%#$!$
%#$^#$T#%$&*%^*^#$%#$!!!!!!!!!

WT-(Insert word here)-!!!!
My laptop's screen shows blank! And it is like just 1 year old?! The stuff inside can be loaded ( I mean there is the "logging in to computer" sound) and I could even shut down with the windows button on the keyboard....but hell, there is no image or word of any kind!! I had to call for appointment, and what a bad time for my laptop to "die"! Today is Labour Day, the following is the weekends....and I need it for Monday's class!!!

Damn it!! ARGGGGG!!!!!!

Okay, now that my frustration has been released....

I went to JTC's Cosply section yesterday and the stuff they offered are rather interesting :) I am joining it next week! (together with YanLing =D) I didn't sign up yesterday cos I need to confirm that she is going, so yeh....when they were like asking who haven't took attendance yet, I literally sunk down on my chair. But all is fine now :D Cosply looks so cool!!!

Next would be StageArt on Monday...been waiting to join them for a long time already but didn't get a chance to sign up during CCA Fiesta. I was damn excited when they finally reply to my tag message to their blog. (I sent an email to their NP email...no reply...)Lucky I found their blog, by chance!
This would be the last one I'm joining (excluding the not confirmed Ice-skating which I've promised Yanling, but she have second doubts due to the timing...) I finally pulled her to join me on Mon, which she kept hesitating about. Haha, she gave in to me in the end, but just to accompany me there, aka to "see-see look-look".

Working on Saturday again and was actually called to work on Sunday but my manager was nice enough to excuse me on Sunday! Yeh, I'm free!!! Haha! Thank you!

So much stuff...so little time...and I really need to revise my Chem, I think I've forgotten most!

2009-04-28T09:03:00.000-07:00

Excited/Scared for tomorrow:

Having my first S&W : DanceSport - A module which I chose single-mindedly...( I mean, facing the volleyball, soccer, gym, etc.....this is the best next to Yoga, which was not avaliable in my timeslot ): )

So, I'll be doing Latin Cha-Cha and Salsa, love the idea....but I've never attended dance lessons (except for ballet, which is like ages ago!)
Feeling nervous....

Heh, there's Jap class tomorrow too...have to say our telephone numbers in Jap, lol...don't know if I can remember it....

2009-04-26T08:17:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the 2nd week of my poly life...
Love the subjects (no humanities=no down-right failing, yeh!), love the friends, love the wide range of food and books (the library is damn big!),..... hate the walking -_-...

Haha, but overall, it is fantastic =D (still waiting for the CCAs)

I still haven't finish my homework....which makes me wonder why I'm here blogging....but anyway ..There are many that I still don't understand! omg...

The battle has just began.... Gambatte!

2009-04-22T06:28:00.000-07:00

I don't know what is wrong...
You know those first meetings? There will be some who would ask u something like what race you are or are you an English speaker or Chinese speaker, etc. Mine was kind of funny and strange, in a way. This is what I got from some:

The most common "You are not local right?"
Or the.... "Oh! You are Taiwanese! Cool!"
Or... " Taiwanese? Really?!"
Ah, and this.... "You are Chinese?! You don't look full Chinese! You looked mixed..." It shocked me...
"I thought you are Filipino...." ( I have a Filipino friend and apparently I speak like her.)
"You don't look Taiwanese, you look local"
This really stunned me. "You really sound like a good English speaker! Your English doesn't sound local..." Seriously! I've never EVER heard people said that about me in secondary (except about the local part..they just said I sound funny) but this time its almost like everyone said that! omg!
"I thought you are a English-speaker..."
Okay, this is funny. "I think I've seen you before...have I seen you before? I think you have a common face.." This, I got twice in one day!
Oh yes....and the best one yet, "Your Chinese doesn't sound better than your English" This, is the first time ever...

First three days, four different classes, meeting with different people. Many first time introductions....and many very interesting reactions XD

2009-04-20T06:37:00.000-07:00

First day of school and I'm so tired!!
It's like a mini inter-sch amazing race....I'm guessing losing 3kg in 1 week is actually possible for me!

Anyway, took MRT to Clementi (packed), and NP shuttle bus (Almost got lost looking for it, then found out that its at the other side....) to get to school. I don't know if it was my nerve or something, after I stepped into the lecture hall, my stomach got upset and I had to go toilet. In the end I found Yanling and sat down. (The lecture went on with my stomach growling...)
Finally we went for break and the nuggets there were delicious! Haha! Then we got separated to our classes and since Yanling and I already know we are in the same class (its fate I tell u...she was the first friend I ever made in np!), we looked for the class A01.

There, we found Lingyu (our second friend made in np, what's up with this fate?!)
She had a DPA so she became our tour guide when we were going for lunch.( All there's missing is the tour flag and the speaker, haha!)

There is also Kate. A very nice girl and also 18 this year! She have this unique name which sounds so Spanish-y, Kate Pauline M Luanzon, lol...but she is a Fillipino =D

Looking for the canteen is like hell. It was the period of the 'incrowd' so the whole Makan Place was like so crowded. Even Canteen 2 was packed, but we managed to get a place and buy some drinks and Takoyaki.

Oh! And I met so many old friends! I saw ChunHui, Debbie, Soon Teck, Eric, Hizwani, LeXin and Shun Zhen all in one day! It's a wonder that such a huge school has such a small world.....

2009-04-18T07:28:00.000-07:00

I really want to thank my mum for pulling me out of my chair and force me to work. If not, I'll still be someone who can't communicate properly (though can't say I'm very good at it now, at least it was better than before). If not, I wouldn't be able to make friends at the introduction briefing or the camp. (Which proves to be of a lot of help cos I found out that one of them is my classmate!)

Thank you mum!

Now, comes the main part of this post...

School is starting at 20 April and I have 8 modules to juggle with my work (which is definitely compulsory cos I need the $$). Actually I only have 7 modules for my course this semester, but I took another language...so yeh, it'll be fun (until the day of the exam o.O)

Feeling tired just thinking of it...

Anyway, saw the notes for my third language (fourth, if I count my parents' native language, which I still have lots to learn...) and omg, it looks so hard! However, I'm planning to get the Cert. for that language so, I have to endure!

Bring it on!!!

2009-04-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

This is kind of random but...
I saw stars!!
Not that much but at least I saw more than one or two. Since I live in a area where there are lots of buildings and lights, it is very rare that I could see that much stars.
Feeling really happy now!!

Ok, back to Earth...
Working on Saturday and Sunday at 9am-4pm, so for those who wanted to drop by...you are more than welcome =D

Oh yeh, wanna go to NP to buy notes and other stuffs tomorrow but I'm afriad I'll get lost (again), anyone can accompany me?!

2009-04-14T03:57:00.000-07:00

Bought an anti-virus software today cos my mum's computer is going ~~a bit~~ really crazy. We stood there wondering which of the brands to buy and in the end I got one which could be used by 3 home PCs and with 2 years protection.

$143++

It was a big box...with only a registration card and a installation CD, damn light! I thought they will provide us with manuals or something...
Tried on my mum's com first, it couldn't be installed. Kept showing me the "installation failed" window. Ok, that's not all, the worst was "this software is out-dated". That, completely knocked me out...
Did some search on the web and found out that there was another new version. I thought what I bought was the latest... stupid mistake no. 1.

Couldn't find a solution, so I did a installation on my laptop, thinking that maybe because my mum's computer has no genuine Windows Software....stupid mistake no. 2. My lappy went auto-shut down before the full installation and I couldn't open my laptop without the safe mode on.

So, I went to download the free version, thinking that I really need some protection cos the windows kept prompting me about my lack of anti-virus software....stupid mistake no.3.

My lappy continue to hang so I served the net with the safe mode on.(really ugly, the icons are like melon-size in front of my face....ok, not that big..) After some banging and some "omg; wth; shouldn't have brought this; arggg!!!" I finally found the solution to all this problem; upgrading with my licence number. Went into that site a thousand times only to find it was at the bottom of the site. Not scrolling down; (really) stupid mistake no.4.

Started downloading the new version, feeling very happy that I finally found the solution and was kind of feeling proud of myself. When the downloading was completed, I restarted the laptop, only to find that it couldn't turn on normally. Had to uninstall the whole program and install it again. Installing when com is still in safe mode; stupid mistake no.5.

Finally installed everything into two of our computers/laptop and had to do activation. Couldn't understand why it couldn't work and the expiry date is still set as the trial period, so I sent "Licence no. entered but expiry date still set as 30 days after installation. Activation failed." requesting for help. I continued searching for clues on why the activation could not work when I revisited my email. I've mistaken the licence key(sent though email after registration) with the consumers' no. ( needed for registration)....stupid mistake no.6.

Now fully completed installation, I worked on the last one, which was still down at 66% and stucked. Risking a try, I cancelled that download to restart a new one, thinking that it will start at 66%. Stupid mistake no.7....It restart at 0%...which after 2 hours, still strangling at 23%...

The funny thing is, I did a quiz called "Your hidden talent" and my result was "Techno geek".
Yeh, real hidden alright...

2009-04-11T02:39:00.000-07:00

For those who missed the part 2 story of my camp, it is in continuation with the previous post :)
Happy reading that extra long post! XD

Okie...now its about my work today. Had work at 7am today. And...I finally learned a few customer-favourite hot drinks! Wooh hoo!!
For those who come and visit me, I'll (try to) make you all the drinks....can't do discount/more ingredents/etc. though...cos 1. It will taste weird 2. I don't know how to work pro at the counters yet...and 3. even if I did...no special discounts! (:P)

Want to sleep....still got another 7am shift tml...
Tata!

2009-04-09T22:20:00.000-07:00

Got back from Camp and boy, was I tired!

Let me tell u what happened...

First Day:

After the debrief of LSCT, it was time for the camp at 3pm. At first it was like the usual camps, GLs (group leaders) trying to get people high, did a lot of cheers just to do that. Typical stuff... So you can see a bunch of people getting high on the "stage" of the lecture hall...They divided us into 8 groups, classified as either "Dark" or "Good" side. In the Dark side there is Vader from Starwars, Joker from Batman(that's us XD), JigSaw from no idea, and Bison(no idea wat is it). Good side there is Hellboy from HellBoy, Mulan from Disney:P, Gorden(heard its from PowerRangers...no idea wats that!) and Conan from Detective Conan (a Jap Manga for those who don't know..)

Next they brought us to the sports complex to some hall to put our bags and change to our unwanted clothes (Of-cos this sounds bad....u have no idea...) We went to a field and wow, u should have seen what they did to that place....mud, butter and a lot of water..... All of us have this kind of expression on our faces

Yeh.. it was that bad...

We were to

1. Tie our legs together (as a group) and form a circle with balloons between us and walk towards a watermelon (On the way, some GL poured flour over us and rub butter on our back and legs!)

2. Eat the watermelon (But we didn't do that, they just dig the watermelon and drop it on the field..no one will know..:P) and take the shell

3."Export" 5 girls to the other side by two guys. They have to use only two arms in the process..then the rest were off to

4. Crawl under strings and on (u guessed it) mud, water and butter, with incoming missiles of muddy water. Definitely have to close ur mouth and eyes when u go in!

5. Fill a bucket with the extremely dirty and oily water with tee-shirt, hand, the melon shell and...well, all the things u can find...

6. Form a caterpillar and ran toward the finishing line(back to the starting line). It's like right hand holding the person in front and left hand goes under the legs, and it goes on and on, boy-girl alternate! the problem is, because our hands where so oily that when we ran, our hands slipped lots of time!

In the end we didn't win...but it was rather fun:) Had a cheer-off to see who gets to wash up first....got third I think..after washing with a hose,we still feel very oily :( Couldn't wear our shoes cos we were all soaking wet, so we walked back bare-footed. Then it was dinner time. (didn't eat the Veggies...Very Typical :P) We felt so cold as we were still wet and the wind was blowing, lucky that it wasn't such a big wind. After dinner, we sat in circles to discuss about our campfire play. The group decided to do a play about Joker and Batman.

The storyline goes like this: Joker and Catwoman were in a having an affair and Batman didn't know it. The paparazzis caught them together and their affair went on the News. Batman, still in love with Catwoman kidnapped her and demanded a ransom of 3 million from Joker. Unable to pay, Joker decided to rob a bank. He brought the $$ to the designated location but even with the 3 million, Batman still refuses to return Catwoman. Feeling angry, Joker and his minions attacked Batman and his companions (in other words, gang fight). At last, Joker and Batman were the only once left standing and with a furious battle of Scissors-Paper-Stone, Joker finishes with the a 'Paper' attack, pinned down Batman, and got back Catwoman. And they lived happily ever after!
It was a rather funny play, I volunteered to act as the reporter (paparazzi). Had to throw annoying questions at the couple, haha!

After that we proceed on to the water games, and it was already dark... Each group were given a 'tsue-box' aka, 'a tissue in the middle of square cupboard'. We have to keep the tissue in the middle out of water as GLs will throw water booms at us to make us wet. That, we get a few points. Another way to get points is to collect as much of the water bombs' bags as we could and each cost 1 point. (Actually it's a plan for us to clean up. U know how I know? Cos after the game, they didn't really count them, they ask us to all throw it away -_-''')
Anyway, after the games we were so wet and cold and all really want to take a bath real bad. However, as usual, it was Packed! At last I've bathe and ready to get to bed...
It was already 4am...

Second Day:

Woke up at 8am, and gathered at 9am. After that, we were told to change to unwanted clothes, again...(known that already, so I slept in it)
Tell u, the games that are coming up next, even worst than the day before! We went to the field first, and as usual, it was with butter, mud and water....but with a few more extra ingredients....eggs and soy sauce!!! Omg..the smell! I got a stomach ache suddenly and asked to go to the toilet.
Well, I couldn't pee or poo so I end up there again after a few minutes (felt better...it was the on/off stomachache that I usually have in the morning.) When I got there, a few of my teammates already have their butts soaking wet (still have no idea what they did though..) Round two was something like the Dog-and-Bone, my no. was 12 and was the first one to be called. We actually have to dive for eggs hidden in the deep (dirty)water paddle and the colour of the egg was completely covered by the water that I was confused on what to catch. I was like standing there having no clue, then they all shouted, "Catch the egg!!". Since I have no idea, I just dived and then, the egg was revealed. I saw it and snatched it, trying to roll away but was touched by the opponent team. In the end, I think they won, that round. Next was round 3. the GLs refilled the place with more eggs, butter, soy sauce and we have to play Scissors-Paper-Stone while rolling to our opponent. Went twice;lost twice -_-... So after that we went bare foot again and guess what? It was in the hot day and the road was like really heating! We had to jump around and try to find the areas with grass! I know we are tasty...but roast us? Even prepared with butter and soy sauce!?

Next stop, was the battle of the flour. Why was that? Cos we all will end out with white hair and white face. We had to try and blow the ping pong balls out of a box of flour.
Didn't make it...:(
The GL in-charged had to stop me and told me to go back... was so embarrassed! Oh ya, forgot to mention, in all this process, we had to have a banana between our knees. The flour in the end got hardened and stick to our hair cos of the water activities we had later...it was like really bad dandruff...

Third, random food items. Cos we were so oily, the GLs in charge pardon us on the human lever thing (u know the one u had to carry people by their legs and they have to walk with their hands?) Instead, we did the duck walk. When it was me and my partner's turn, they read a no. and we had to find the plate, open the plate and eat the thing inside. What we got was celery and lemon....remember that I don't eat veggies? I puke the one celery that I place in my mouth! My partner had to eat everything for me (then puke it out again) Really sorry!!! The luckiest thing that happened to one of the pairs was that they got sweets (gummy bears) twice! At first people were sort of jealous, so they told them to go once more cos they had to repeat a team. Then, once they got there, someone shouted, "They got Gummy Bears again!". We were So Jealous now...

Fourth, water games...all water!!( plus some colourings...but hey, at least it was clean) Had to pass with garbage bags and newspaper (which later they used the guys' tee-shirts). GLs will throw the bomb bags and spray water from second story trying to make us drop our bomb bags. That was my favourite game, cos we were cleaned up by the water hose they spray at us. We actually felt clean! Ok....now what made us go OMG is the game that last and final game.....

Extremely dirty game! With Butter, soy sauce and more flour, this time with little water to diffuse the mixture. We had to have all go in and lay on it...and what is worst is that because we were the last group to play that game, everything leftover was poured onto us! I could feel the soya on my hair and butter on my head, back and legs! It was totally nuts man! Our hands were dirty so those who didn't go in due to allergies took them for us...(imagine their baggage...once again, Sorry!!!)
We went back to the sports hall, but on the way, a teacher (I think) stopped us cos we are dripping with sauce. Lectured to our GL about us going up to the 2nd lvl (yup..I think he is a teacher..) In the end, we were told to wash our hands and feets before we took our clothes from the hall....should had seen the toilet, it was all ours!! Haha! Lucky I rushed down..:P

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Will update about the night and the third day tommor...cos I have work at 7am.. o.O, kk gotta sleep now, stay tune for part 2!!
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Back for part 2!--

Okay, so after we bathe, we discuss again on how to do our play. It was followed up by the indoor campfire (many still joked, "where is the fire?" "They are going to show a video of it..."). Did our performance and there was the DanceOff after that. Chicken dance, Makaraina( sry, don't know how to spell..), square dance (in which u have to find a male partner...don't even know the guys I danced with...) and just plain...dancing....
We were all sweaty and too tired to "party" anymore, and now comes...the nightwalk...

We were separated into two group in all, one to enter the LSCT main block( I think..) and another to the Famous/Infamous Block 50. The GLs took us to one place and told us to never go in odd numbers and not to talk loudly. They talked about that nightwalk experiences...one which I refused to listen, so I covered my ears. I was in the group heading towards LSCT....lucky me...or so I thought...
There were many people and the GLs actually suggested that we should do it Solo, that scared the crap out of me!(literally) However, it took too long...it was already 3pm and we still weren't even close to our turns! Now, people are already starting to sleep. The GLs knew that we were tired (I know they were too) so they speed up the walk, we were going in pairs! Now here comes the worst and heart-sinking part..."Jokers, follow me, we are going ...Blk 50.." Imagine the thunder roared and lightning strike at the same time, ya...it was going on in my brain....
We paired up (boy-girl), and were lead off to another location. Everyone were tired and wanting to get this over with...my partner and I were the second last pair to enter the block.
We were told to go down a staircase and into the building next to it. I was already terrified, so I asked permission to hold his hand (yes, even before entering...I was really afraid that I might be shipped off to another dimension or something, like the Bermuda Triangle...lame thinking...I know..) So before we entered the building, there was this 'thing' sitting at the bench and making the eerie sound. My partner thinks that it was one of our GL, cos he does have long hair. He then asked, "You are Darryl right?" That 'thing' of cos didn't answer (I mean, they were there to scare us in the first place, so why on earth will they bother to answer us? No answer= Scarier) I just told him to keep on walking....that 'thing' actually followed us.....now that's scary...
Anyway, it was dark and random people will appear at random places. One even hid in a classroom and suddenly jumped out at us. Strangely, I didn't scream....I just shouted,"OMG!"and squeezed my partner's hand...Another one was lying at the side of the corridor. I did felt the warmth already, so I was being careful not to step on them. I couldn't see them so I decided to take it slowly when walking that route...who knows, that person laying down thought I was scared so he/she did a "WAH!" to let me scream. I wasn't sure of my reaction after that...I think it was,"ah.."
I got to thank the GLs, seriously. They decorated the place with garbage bag ceiling hangers, fake dummies stuff with tissues and, oh yes...the all important light-sticks. It made the nightwalk seems a lot less scarier. They made it look like Halloween.
Finally, after many twist and turns, going up and down the stairs, we finally reached the end. It was really fun and I really don't mind going in there again, provided there is a person with me.
Felt really stinky and sticky after the nightwalk, why was it after we bathed? I was too tired, so I just wiped my back, leg and dozed off.
It was already 6.30am.

Third Day:

We were actually excused to wake up before 10am...but I still woke up at 8.30am. When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was my leg...and what was on it. Someone drew "Joker Ruxs" X5 all over my right leg while I was asleep. Still feeling drowsy, I took my friend's offer of wet tissue and wept it off without thinking. (Darn! I should have taken a picture of it!)
Anyway, it was our last day and we took lots of pictures.
I really miss U all!!
Joker Rules!!!

P.s.: When I reached home, I was so tired that I actually dozed off while I was on a toilet bowl! And...I slept from 4pm to 10am the next morning (Skipped dinner, wasn't even feelin hungry :P)

P.s.s: I saw my sec 3-4 classmate and he was in charge of taking our camp photos. He kept taking my pics! Now I had to mention him in my blog so that he would hand those photos to me.... There, I've mentioned...How's this Joven?

2009-04-06T06:03:00.000-07:00

I'm too lazy to blog much about my outing today....
just to sum up: I've dropped a hotdog before I even got a bite, eaten Sake Sushi buffet and bought a $12 black Tee....

Yeh..the Sushi part, took us a long time cos we were practically having a "during sec sch life" conversation....so fun, we were so noisy :P

Oh yes...the manager sms and ask me if I could go there at 7am-2pm on Sat and Sun, just hope that I don't fall asleep before 12....-_-....

Eh, need to get some sleep for tomor's camp...nite nite!

2009-04-04T23:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's work was a little more stressful than Friday's peak period...Made wrong payments and had to call for the manager's card to open the cashier, twice in one day!(was so embarrassed) There was only two people during my shift and I couldn't do hot drinks yet. The problem is, it was a morning sift and people normally ordered hot drinks! I really want to apologise to my partners, one of them can't even have a proper break!(sorry!!)

Learned how to steam the milk for hot drinks. Really scary cos it sometimes will spill out and, let me tell you, it was damn hot! I almost got scald because of my natural instinict ( I actually touched the metal part of the tube!) Anyway, I still have lots to learn and remember....

Was actually suppose to work today, but I asked the manager if I could "rest for Sunday". -_-... A straight demerit, I guess...
But it wasn't for no reason. Can't expect me to suddenly come out of the comfort of my home and work for 3 days straight! (It's even a surprise that I ain't dead yet...) I mean, I even have problems having a conversation with people on the first day! Then again...it is a real bad excuse... (Told u I'm a 宅女and a serious one in fact!)
Furthermore, I think I'm sick. Had a bad sore throat for two days and kept coughing. Lucky it wasn't that serious when I was working...I was actually crying for joy when the sms came and told me that I don't need to go today, cos I could sleep-in till late! (woke up at 11.30am this morning/afternoon :P)

Next will be an outing and the orientation camp:D
Going out!! Haha, I'm looking forward to it! Just wish I don't spend too much $$ :P (Eudy, Min, hold me back if I got out of control!)
Three days two nights camp, I heard that it might be harsh. Just wish that the night-walk isn't that scary...I know that I couldn't get out of it like how we did in JC camp :P (Thank u rain!!)

Orientation all over again, new friends and surroundings, hope that I could cope with all this with study and work... Can't wait!

2009-04-03T03:21:00.000-07:00

I'm officially hired.

They say they are happy with my glooming but I'll still have to touch up on my "makeup-less" face. (probably cos of my deep black eye bag; black panda is my middle name...) Thus the quest of hunting makeup items. Spent about $150+ yesterday on these...(felt bad,cos my mum paid the bill...sorry:< ) The makeup artisite did a makeover on me and suggested those products and boy, do I look funny! Maybe thats because I'm not used to it...then again, my eyes are bigger than usual...scary....

Follow up is my hunting of shoes, (remember I had worn out two within one week? I was out of shoes...) and bought the replacements, one black and one red high heels (love the heels!! Good for increasing my....inferiority XD ) Mum paid for it, again.... I swear I'll use my own money next time! Sorry!!!

Today went to the clinic for injection, a must if I want to touch any the food. After that, I waited for my shift on 11pm. At last, I could make some Frappes! Learnt Double Chocolates, Mocha, and Mango Smoothies! This is so cool! (Although I still have problems with the whip cream and remembering the right ingredients....)

Since it was friday, in the afternoon it was a peak period. The sink was filled with unwashed blenders , cups and plates. It was a total mess! So when we need to use another blender, we had to wash it again... but that happens for only a moment, cos apparently customers came all in one go and it went quiet after that. My senior was right...it really was nuts during peak periods!

Still, I will feel a bit nervous...it was like having an exam cos at anytime those seniors will suddenly ask me what were the ingredients to make a certain drink....stressful....

Ah, I finally understand those who said "I don't feel like going to work tomorrow...", cos I'm feeling the same way now :P

2009-03-28T19:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Earth day (or so I heard from my mum and bro). I was told to off all my electrical appliances. Yes, that includes my laptop (not HP...cos it was not plugged in). After I off it, I found out that my mum's TV was still on and my bro is still serving the Net -_-...(he even left it on overnight...ya, really saving the Earth!) I was pranked, literally!

Nevermind..at least I could do a good deed for Mother Earth:)

Ok, so now to the part about my shoes. I have about 2 pairs that I usually wore out. I don't know what is wrong with the shoes..or me ( I think it was me..), both pairs gave away and "blossomed". Both at public area, one in the middle of IMM shopping mall. I had to change to slippers (bought last minute) in a restaurant! ...that was so embarrassing!

Really, Buy And Throw Away, you could have guess where I bought that from...

Now currently searching for new pair of shoe...I'll apologise to my mum beforehand cos I had the tendency of driving her nuts when buying my shoes. (I am extremely choosy, I'm really sorry)

2009-03-27T08:43:00.000-07:00

Min! This song is from me to you:)

卓文萱-下個幸福

同樣的話說好多遍我的擔心妳很瞭解
但愛像糾結的毛線得一天一點慢慢解

我會永遠在妳身邊但我不能說妳都對
他為了什麼要告別其實已不是重點

一顆心飛走的時候　
兩個人的擁抱都讓人想淚流

以前妳很快樂什麼都告訴我
妳後來為什麼要自己一個默默痛著
太聰明就想太多越倔強越沒路走
我懂得妳怕我難過捨不得

以前妳曾說過灑脫才能自由
陪著我看日落再陪我聊到天空亮了
別拉著他的衣袖就讓我牽妳的手
夢想的下一個幸福就快來了

妳抬頭是天空妳還有好朋友
陪著妳唱情歌再陪妳聊到心又暖了
別拉著他的衣袖就讓我牽妳的手
完美的下一個幸福就快來了

妳也許想回頭妳也許還會寂寞　
我一定陪著走過

Remember I'm always here for you, you'll always have me as a friend...
还有好朋友陪着你聊到心又暖了。

2009-03-24T23:28:00.000-07:00

Heh...I really feel like going to school. It is kinda bored staying at home all the time (for 3+ months! omg...I'm really going to be sick if I carry on doing this. Can't say that I don't love every second of it...but still....)

Min! I wanna go out!

Plus, the Mc ppl still haven't called, since that time. I'm working part time, so I think that they'll only call when there are ppl who couldn't make it. So what should I do? I thought it was fixed but its not. Should I work for 3 more months (it was my plan actually..to try for 3 months and see if I want to quit) or quit now? I mean, I can't really earn much by doing this...

What should I do??!

2009-03-16T22:13:00.000-07:00

OMG, my Internet finally functioned right! I thought my laptop had virus when I couldn't sign in to my email or blogspot. (My heart skipped a beat...) In the end, we off/on our Internet and it finally worked...

Thank goodness! I don't want to spend $$ to fix my lappy, I don't have much!

Oh...speaking of which, I got a job at Mc Cafe! Better than normal Mc as the uniform is in whole black ( rather than yellow-black.....honeybee) Anyway, had my first job on last Sunday and it was real tiring. On first day (apparently) they need to "test-run" newbies to see if they are really suitable for the job. So...Day One - Cleaning: 1) Clear the tables 2) Keep the trays 3) Throw away full garbage 4) Mop the toilet floor 5) and etc....

Honestly...I really want to quit on first day. I think I've developed a fear of smelling Mc's food-- the McSmellPhobia, -_-... Even when I went back home, my muscle memory couldn't stop. Its like I'm still waiting for customer to go off and to start clearing the trays, quickly! That's not all! When I was sleeping, (now this is really scary) all I could see is the Mc and "uncleared" trays! My legs even twitched as my brain had already sent a message, "Quickly, clear the trays!" OMG...this is beyond nightmare, this is seriously Psycho! I can't go inside Mc unless I'm cured...I'll really start clearing the trays! (!!!)
But, in order to get money, I must endure!! (And its also a good exercise XD, I'm aiming to lose at least 2 kg in 3 months, Haha!)

2009-03-11T03:16:00.000-07:00

I feel like blogging today, but don't know what to blog about...:P

Weather? Haha...It feels so nice these days. Cool wind ; not too sunny, not too cold. It's weird...that I feel so energise.
Also, it feels nice to have hot baths during that weather. Warm water that touches the already cool skin, warming the blood underneath. It is like going into a hot spring during winter, with the energy replenished.

I like cold weathers...

I'm being totally lame and random....pls ignore...

2009-03-05T00:21:00.000-08:00

Okay, this is going to be a real long post...
I'm doing updates for last Friday....
Here it goes...

We finally had our 4e4 class gathering/outing, though it was still the same few... First I met up with Eunice and Lyon at CCK and took bus to Vivo, (with a change of bus at Orchard). After we arrived at Vivo we proceed to find them, but actually got kinda lost. I called Xinlei and she said that they were near the information booth. I was also near the information booth but I couldn't see her. We were also near the National Geographic (had no idea whats in there, but it sure was big) and Lyon wanted to go in, pulling me as I was still wondering where they are. Then, I saw Joelle, and I handed her the phone( in which Xinlei was still on hold). We found out that they were sitting right on the other side, which is to say, next to us. (We couldn't see them as there was a big escalator in between....damn that escalator) In the end, Lyon didn't even get to visit the National Geographic.(haha, sorry:P)

We met up with Dabie, Shunzhen, Pei, Xinlei and Alvin 2. They were the only ones that actually came ( before all this, there were 3 who said they would "love" to go...but 1 of them back out and the rest follow the suit...the same stunt every time...) We stood near a wedding booth (Vivo was having a wedding convention) and were still deciding where to go next. We stood for so long that the person in charge of the booth actually "bribe" us off, giving us a balloon dog (which Joelle gladly accepted, haha!) We walked up and down, separating for a while to buy personal stuff and gathered again. Then, its about where to eat. Restaurant, fast food or Food Court. I personally wanted restaurant...I mean, who comes all the way to Vivo and eat Food Court?! But ppl do have their budgets (Even me:P) We finally came to a suggestion, 'let's buy whatever we want and eat at the rooftop garden.'

Anyway, I got myself Burger King's chicken tenders and Starbuck's Vanilla ice blended( nice!:D) and we sat near the view of the ....ocean...? We talked, played games. After a while, LiJia and Eric came. Then it was OMG funny. It's like back in the Sec sch days when we laugh so hard. We girls went to the bathroom and took the time to buy a birthday cake (only a piece) for Eric, as it was also his birthday. After that, we continued to play games, with penalties (Lyon have to do jumping-jacks while Pei have to shout "Yo!" to the other side...haha!)

We left at about 9.30-something, after a trip to Candy Empire/Watson's/Toilet, we were ready to go home. All of us took the same bus, and we saw Haronie (apparently he was working at Vivo). We sat at the back of the bus, occasionally laughing, until we reached Bukit Panjang, where most of us alighted. Cos Eunice and me had to get to CCK (and she had to get home early) we took the cab together. (she paid...sorry!!)

Before we reached Lot 1, my mum called (it was over my curfew) and asked where I am and threatened to "call the police". I was like "omg, Chill! I reaching home!" (I mean,I did told mum that I'm reaching, its not like I'm going to get suddenly abducted by aliens. Anyway, if I am, what is the use of the police?)

I did reached home, safe and sound XD...What a wonderful (and tiring) day!

--end of last Friday's entry--

2009-02-22T22:36:00.000-08:00

The Pianist (2002)

Wladyslaw Szpilman, a famous Polish Jewish pianist working for Warsaw radio, sees his whole world collapse with the outbreak of World War II and the invasion of Poland in September 1939. After the radio station is rocked by explosions from German bombing, Szpilman goes home and learns that Great Britain and France have declared war on Nazi Germany. He and his family rejoice, believing the war will end quickly.

When the Nazis' armed SS organization occupies Warsaw after the regular army passes on, living conditions for the Jewish population gradually deteriorate as their rights are slowly eroded: first they are allowed only a limited amount of money per family, then they must wear armbands imprinted with the blue Star of David to identify themselves, and eventually, late in 1940, they are all forced into the squalid Warsaw Ghetto. There, they face hunger, persecution and humiliation from the SS and the ever present fear of death or torture. The Nazis became increasingly sadistic and the family experiences and/or witnesses many horrors inflicted on their neighbours. (One scene in which the German soldiers entered one of the Jewish homes and ordered that family, who were eating dinner at that time, to stand. However, one of them ,an old man on a wheelchair, could not stand. The officer leading the man-hunt mercilessly ordered him to be thrown off the balcony, while the Szpilman family watched in horror. Others caught were forced to ran, while the soldiers shot them one by one.)

Szpilman is saved at the last moment by one of the Jewish Ghetto Police, who happens to be a family friend. However, his separated family,along with thousands of others, were deported by train to the extermination facility at Treblinka.

Fleeing from one hiding place to another, Szpilman nearly died due to jaundice and malnutrition. In his last hiding place, while trying to open a can of Polish pickles, Szpilman realizes to his horror that he is being watched from behind by the Captain of the regular German army, Wilm Hosenfeld. Upon questioning Szpilman and discovering that he is a pianist, Hosenfeld asks Szpilman to play something for him on the grand piano that happens to be in the building. After Chopin's Ballade in G minor was played, he lets Szpilman continue hiding in the attic of the building and even brings Szpilman food regularly, thus saving his life.

Title cards shown just before the end credits reveal that Szpilman continued to live in Warsaw and died in 2000, but that Hosenfeld died in 1952 in a Soviet prisoner-of-war camp.

[Info obtained from Wikipedia, ...most of it.]

A movie that is both beautifully acted and directed, with a beautiful piano piece that connects it all. Truly one that is worthwhile the title of an Oscar Movie!

2009-02-14T01:28:00.000-08:00

Heyhey!! Happy Valentine's Day!

To all the lovely couples out there, wish you guys all the best in years to come!
To all the singles....you are not alone! XD Maybe one day you'll find your true love, but in the mean time, lets celebrate the joy of being single!!!

Haha, Valentine doesn't really mean anything to me, since I've spent most of my years not celebrating it. Normally I wouldn't receive anything, but I remember during my Sec 4 year (had no idea what happened to us), I received bunch of gifts, chocolates, sweets from my classmates and schoolmates. Maybe we all felt that since that was the last year we'd had together after our O's...why don't we show how much we loved each other! Hence, that was my first (hopefully not the last) Valentine's Day ever....one which I would not easily forget.

So, Singles, Valentine's day is not only for Lovers but also for your closest and best of friends and family. Show them how much you appreciate and love them:)

Here, I'm gonna send all my (Cyber-ly) love and appreciation to Min, Pei, Bao, Roz, Mus, Diy, Xin, Chun, Lyon, Tam, Amanda, 4e4 , 0841C (+ Mr Billy) and members of ZSS ELDDS'07 !
I Love You All!

Now I'm going to eat my wonderful Ferrero Rocher and enjoy some dramas!

Happy Valentines' Day!!!

2009-02-07T21:37:00.001-08:00

Yesterday I almost fainted on the MRT
I thought I saw my life flashed before me!

My whole body felt so heavy... I think I'm really sick~~ T,T

Maybe its malnutrition, hadn't been eating well lately...

2009-02-02T23:25:00.000-08:00

I just wanna say this...Thank you Min for the Lady Gaga songs!!! They are so cool and fun to listen to! XD

I should have updated my Saturday entry long time ago cos that was the only time(this year, so far)I've been out for almost the whole day, without any contact with my Laptop or TV ***Claps wildly!!*** A big achievement! Ok....

Anyway, In the morning I met up with Pei, Min, Bao and went to Jurong Point. Actually, We didn't know what to do after we've reached there (talk about bad planning....and I'm the one planning! x_x) Since Min rushed out of the house and had not eaten her breakfast, we decided to eat lunch. We took the brochure and went hunting for restaurants.

Have I mentioned that I really miss them? Pei was as crazy as ever and it reminds me about the time we had when the four of us would sit at the IJC canteen and laugh our heads out. All in less than 1 year...can you believe that?

We finally found a place to eat. It was something like an American Diner (yes, with huge servings of food). We sat next to a table of some American workers and Wow...you should have seen what they are eating. Our normal meal would be just appetizers to them! I ordered a creamy Pasta, which turned out to be Extremely creamy...I had to put ALOT of salt to make it taste better. However, I just couldn't take it...so I just finish the chicken in it and left the pasta, yes..a plate full. (I'm Sorry!!!) Min ordered fried chicken thigh topped with mozarella...much better than mine...I should have gotten that!

Initially, Pei wasn't gonna eat anything...She was going to order plain water! In the end we forced her to get a potato salad, which didn't turn out either... Well, the best is still Bao's Billy's Banana Split (isn't it a nice name?..nevermind..) I mean, who could hate Ice Cream?

I really wish we'd meet up again next time.

Next time, lets go watch "Underworld: The rise of Lycans" I've been waiting for this!!

2009-02-02T02:40:00.000-08:00

I came across this Manga that stopped publishing before the story even ended properly because of low-ratings. Normally I'll just ignore it, however, this story is very funny and totally original!

So...Please Support and bring back Double Arts!!!

P.s: Click 'Support' to ..well, support...and 'Double Arts' to read the Manga yourself:)

2009-01-30T00:51:00.000-08:00

I got into my second choice: NP- Chemical and Biomolecular Engineering.

Hadn't been feeling good lately, kept thinking that something bad is gonna happen. This feeling had been with me since CYN. Some things happened during CYN's two days.

No matter how you see it, those are bad signs.

This year is going to rough and I had a feeling that if I don't work extra hard, everything is going to break apart. I now don't have the confidence that I once had initially... Hope at least
I could pass my first year.

I maybe too paranoid but I really don't feel good about this year. It feels extremely scary..

2009-01-29T09:46:00.000-08:00

Almost to the day of release....
Heh~~
Wish all of us luck!!!

2009-01-13T20:02:00.000-08:00

Honestly, I'm wasting my life here... Can I be anymore lazy??

I'm thinking of hitting the gym, to lose some pounds so I don't have to squeeze into some of my old clothes.
Keyword: "thinking".

I feel that I'm losing some IQ...feeling stupid everyday...
"The wheel is running, but the hamster is dead."

Anyway, had sent my application for Joint Admission exercise.
Hope I could get in...
Good luck to Shimin, Eudy and my other friends who just finished O-levels this year. Hope you guys get into your first choice:)

Watched Red Cliff 2 with my family, and it was so nice and funny (some of the parts). The war scene was exciting, and extremely bloody (sort of). We went for the 12am slot, and the funny thing is, my bro was so tired that he almost feel asleep at the war scene! Haha, that's was rather unexpected from him...

Hmm~~What am I suppose to do next?
My mind is all over the place...

2009-01-05T02:52:00.000-08:00

Since I've been sitting in front of the computer for too long (my head is spinning now), my mum kept telling to get out the house, "in"directly.
Officially, she is talking to my dad and occasionally my bro, but one can of course notice the tone and the volume of her voice (loud enough for me to hear).

I got it, mum...I've just sent three resume.

Anyway, currently still unemployed and stuck to the chair.

I'm so waiting for Saturday to come!! Min, Pei, Bao, I miss you guys!! (I can't wait for the movies)

Twilight!!! Didn't get to watch online cos of my damn laptop T,T... Twilight is not on screen anymore? No problem, I'll happily settle with Red Cliff 2 !

OMG, did you see my previous post? It's even scary to think that I read even more than the few mentioned.... -_-'''

You are right mum, I've turned into a *宅女

*Unmarried female who stay at home almost all day, A.K.A Social Outcast*

2008-12-31T23:57:00.000-08:00

Wo! Happy New Year Everyone!!:)
Wish this is a good year for all!

I've been reading lots of mangas lately (no work or school, which leaves unlimited online surfing) and I really recommend "Crossroad"!! Though most who like action comics will not like it but those who like Shoujo-Comedy mangas will really have to try reading it. (*only found in MangaFox.com)
Its completed so it really beats waiting for the next chapter (which, in the mean time lets you forget what happened in the previous chapters )

Also, there is "CatStreet", which good in terms of the story but the art...ha,ha...lets just say Crossroad's was much better. Though I'll really give credit for the story line. It's about this former child star who, because of a sudden stage fright, lost her will to live normally for many years (She always stayed in her room and only had an elementary education). This manga shows how she stood again after so many years of shutting herself from the world, with the help of her friends she met in a not-so-normal school.
Once again, its completed! (Ye!)

Lastly, there is this manga that I recommend for those who are interested in acting. "SkipBeat!" (yes, and including the exclamation mark) I'm not saying that it is a guide to stardom, but it helps , a little:)
Though this doesn't not really portray the realistic life of a starting actress, this does show how the life would be if you are REALLY lucky. Some doesn't even apply to real life. Like, don't EVER try doing what the main character did to get into an agency (you would definitely get sued!)
The bad thing about this manga is that you have to wait for like months to get the next chapter... But, its like 100 over chapters now, so it can kill your time while you wait for the next one. (Just like what I did for "D.Grayman", which btw is very popular, so no introduction needed whatsoever)

Oh, yes,and "Claymore"...damn cool! A bit emo...but damn cool! XD
I don't really know how to introduce this but...action and cool fighting scenes are everywhere:) Haha, but it is rather bloody...(though in anime the blood of the monsters are in purple -_-?? I wonder why purple...)

All this (*unless stated) can be found in OneManga.com

I know, I know...I'll get my life back before I start school ( I promise.......?)

2008-12-21T06:13:00.000-08:00

I'm back!
Actually I came back on 19th (but who cares, no one misses me )

Anyway...

I went back the second time not to play but...to help prepare for the funeral.
A long and depressing story.
Did have tears in my eyes when I first saw Grandpa's Picture placed in front of his body. (I mean it was covered so we couldn't see a thing.) Looking at grandma, I felt hurt all over again. She tried to be strong...but sometimes when talking about Grandpa, she cried. She was skinnier than before, it was obvious that she had not been sleeping well. My uncle came back and forth from Taipei cos he still have to work, in the mean time he tried to ease my Grandma's work load. Our arrival made things easier...including the fact that I'm (self-proclaimed and certified) nocturnal. While my relatives sleep early to wake up the next day for work and school, we (the ones on holiday) did our routines American style...in other words, the other way round. I still do that, sleeping through the afternoon while staying up till 6 in the morning. I manage to do that just this morning, with the 2nd record 7.30am. (1st is 9.30am...yes, I know..scary isn't it?)
The funeral was the hardest part. I don't want to talk about it so you guys just have to imagine the grief and the tension in facing all my grandpa's "friends",(who cames when your life is the grandest and goes when you are facing a crisis. Ya,friends indeed...though some do helped a little), which was an entire hall of them.
Or rather don't imagine it.
It hurts so much to remember the sounds of the silent cries.

I guess we all hate ourselves for not doing more for Grandpa while he was still walking.

I know I do....

2008-12-11T01:30:00.000-08:00

Guess where I am now?
Haha, I'm now in Taiwan! XD
I brought my laptop with me this time...

Erm, so ya, I'm now with my Grandpa...Its something about Chinese traditon. I'm not sure about it, so I just do whatever I'm told. (I'm sometimes rather confused)

Gotta go...will blog soon:)

2008-11-25T01:58:00.000-08:00

I've made a mistake.

My grandpa passed away yesterday morning...but I thought he was still in the hospital.
My mum was hinting it to me, but I refused to think that way.

I didn't dare.

I found out only last night, broke down real badly. I kept thinking about the time he told that I must bring my boyfriend (if I have one,that is) back to visit him(haha).. My eyes are still sore.
I'm better now, so is my family. Apparently I was the last to know, though Mum was hinting it to me.
Just think of it as Grandpa don't have to suffer anymore.

I just wished we stayed there, then we could had seen more of him.

2008-11-24T01:26:00.000-08:00

I was suppose to blog about my trip back a few days ago, but nothing happened much except that my grandpa was looking better than before when we visited him.

When I first saw him in ICU, I almost cried. He wasn't like that before...I could'nt think of anything to say, I was choking with whatever feeling that was inside me at that time. My mum was telling him to "Jiayou", so I managed to parrot her words. Was I smiling?

At least he was in good care.

All 3 of my Uncles and Aunt were there. Including my mum and Grandma, they all looked very tired and thin. Most had been going up and down from Taipei to Luodong, I'm sure they were very worried...

I'm sorry, its a bit moody here...lets talk about what happen to my hair, shall we?:)

My mum and I went to this hairdresser who was reccommended by my uncle's wife. She was very --how hould I say-- take charged? My mum was talking about how she wanted her hair to be done, and she kept saying "Nono, listen to me first."
Mum gave up talking to her in the end.

That same hairdresser said that she wanted to do a "Design Perm" for me (both of us wanted perm), and it was mentioned to her that I wanted a curl that is not so..well, curly.

There we were, sitting for more than 3 hrs going back and forth between that chair and (the place where you wash the hair), in the end the result shock us.

My hair was like it walked right through the mine field! Mum's hair was damaged and I heard that when she brushed her hair, a chunk fell off! She was mad at the hairdresser...

I know that I was told not to perm my hair, hehe...and I've paid my price... I WANT MY HAIR STRAIGHT AGAIN!!!
I really have no Fate with hairdressers, whatsoever...

Anyway, I had to go back again this Dec, the 9th. Apparently, grandpa was kidda suffering a bit. It hit hard on my mum too, she cried. She going back first on Wed, after that will be us then my dad...kidda disorganised, but it was hard for us to get four tickets for Dec and my dad needs to get home quickly for work. I hope Grandpa gets better, when he was conscious, he even told me good luck in getting into Uni. (Grandma made a slight mistake, she told grandpa that I was admitting in to Uni, not Poly...)

I really do pray that he gets better, to be telling jokes to us like he use to.

Thats the reason why I hate hospitals...I fear them.

2008-11-18T08:19:00.000-08:00

Wo! Just came back from Taiwan and I'm really very tired...So, I'll promise to update about my trip back some other time,ok?

Bed, Oh sweet, sweet bed!!

2008-11-08T07:20:00.000-08:00

I'm going to poly! No matter how it is..i still think Science is better for me.

I don't regret having to go to Innova. Putting the stuff about wasting a year in that school aside...I had a lot of my best memories from there!:)

I'll miss my best friends:Min, Pei, Bao, Mus, Boss, Diya and the other people from 0841C. This is really the first time I had bonding with my friends for a whole year!

I've been thinking, I'll give in all my best if I get into BMS....I know it is very hard to get into, provided that I have lesser points than the 2008 COP, but I've already made up my mind that thats the place where I want to go.

Thank you Chun Hui, Xin Hui for encouraging me, making me feel much better:) I look forward to meet you on Mon!

But...If I can't get it...I'll really be pitiful...

Wish me Luck! (Btw, Good Luck to ShiMin too!!)

2008-11-07T01:56:00.000-08:00

I guess this is a sign:
I'm officially going to poly!
All I need is my parents' consent and off I go

I had thought about it through the 1hr and half of the lecture "Exploring other educational pathways... ". I wasn't cut out to be an Art student, I want to study science. I mean, out of the 19 people in my class, 2 got retained...Shimin and Me. We were not the worst students and my attendance was a perfect 10, but we were still retained. Min was lucky,she knew what she wants to do. She has been planning for this since before the exam. I was still confused on what to do with my life (as you can see from my previous entries). But now, the sign had hit me like a hammer on a bell, I'm gonna take something that I'm interested in and wanted to study in -- Science.

Honestly, I'll be in a dilemma if I was promoted (see previous). Now, in fact..I felt pretty happy that I don't have to do Arts anymore. Comeon, C6 for humanities doing A-level Arts, I don't even believe I could make it again if I'm a retainee, and by that time if I want to go poly, I'll have to take O-lvls all over again! It's now or never, right?

Alot of people told me to think over. I've been thinking for the whole 2 weeks and now that I finally reached a decision I want to make the best of it.

So, is it "All the Best!" or "NOOO!!" ?

2008-11-01T04:04:00.000-07:00

Ok,
Should I go Poly or move on to J2 (if i could)? I guess I have to weigh the pros and cons...here it goes..

Moving on to JC2:

Cheaper school fees, I wouldn't have to bother my parents too much on finance.
"Straight-up" education --> less embrassing that way
I could work really hard and get into Uni next year
My friends are here!:)
Next year we are reading "Duchess of Malfi"! I really want to study that!
I still can't think of my passion/interest or anything else..Now its better to just go with the flow
I can't do well in Art course
I might not make it to Uni cos I know myself the best....and I know that I am an extremely lazy girl
There is no future I like after I graduate...talk about the dark future...

Going to Poly:

At least I got a degree to lie back on
I could study and perform at the same time...
Able to pursuit my interest (And make money! Would u look at that..)
No More GP!!!!
Very expensive school fees
Home Clothes! You know how stressful it is to just pick an outfit for just one day? Five days a week...It would look weird if I wear something twice (and I'm that kind of person. )
I work better in stressful environment, if it is slacking...I would slack with it.
I had no idea what course I should choose...Although I do better in sci, there are not many sci course that I want to even consider going, and I don't like Art course cos I hate to do paper work (omg, I'm so fussy!)

Now..what should I do? Min was annoyed when I said I want to go to J2, she said that I'll be wasting my life.She's right, but what else can I do? I lack of any passion or drive to push me further.

Wouldn't life be better if it is just a one-way road? Then again, where could you find unique personalities if that happens?

2008-10-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

Its so depressing...really depressing...

I FAILED EVERYTHING!! (except for Chinese...which was a sub-pass..)
So? I don't think I'm getting promoted to J2 next year...now I'm still deciding on whether to continue in J1 or just go straight to Poly.

The problem is...I don't know what course I should take ( I'll go to SP...easier to get there), should I take Poly next year..
Man! 1 Year wasted in this place! I know I couldn't take Arts but I still did...and now how does it result? Failing every subject...I overestimated myself, too MUCH!

Should I retain or go Poly???? Arrrgh!!

F.Y.I: I had not told my mum about this yet (Too afraid...)

2008-10-09T06:21:00.000-07:00

Today was a crazy day! Only 9 ppl from our class went to school and we didn't even show up for activities!
Initally, there was this PW meeting in the morning. However, three of our members were not in school and the one in school had to go for inter-house games...which left me alone for the meeting... haha! So, we stayed in the canteen till the gate opens :P

To spend my time, I was drawing ...
Wo!! I wanna thank Min for her patience in teaching me to draw..
(though I am not a quarter as good as you, I'm still improving right? =) haha )

Well, thats all for today=)
Next stop... Release of Mid-Course Results a.k.a Death Sentence

2008-10-04T07:23:00.000-07:00

Though Tue would be our last paper for the Promos..I don't feel happy at all... There is still PW and A-lvl Chinese to work our arms off and blow our brains out.
Gosh, it keeps coming one after another!

Will I be able to make it to next yr? Really, I don't know.( I could just hope and pray for a miracle to happen!)

2008-09-29T04:22:00.000-07:00

With GP and Chinese gone, now left with Lit, Econs, Maths and Geog... Could say that I had no idea what the GP passage is talking about...was dozing off a bit before I snap back into reality, hee. I used what I could remember from Social Studies and applied it to my GP essay on discrimination. Hope I didn't go out of point!

I was happy about the Chinese Compo qn and I've used a story from a korean drama:) Was rather excited to see how it would turn out.

(::Sidetrack::)

Had a fight with my bro agian...Shouting, banging (all him) and an icy cold stare(thats mine), I was wondering why there hasn't been any complaints from our neighbours at all. Well, this time its about me not buying dinner back for him when I'm suppose to call him cos I was "on the way" back home. I admit that usually when I didn't call, it was cos I was too lazy to buy for him. However, tonight was not the case...I really did forgot! He was like so damn pissed, scolded me and accuse me of doing it on purpose! Now he had to go out and buy it himself he bang the doors so hard that the whole house shook(I am not kidding!)

Since I'm the one with the money, he demanded it from me, banging the bathroom door. I told him to ask me nicely or I would not give it to him. I was not to bow down without a fight, he is my younger brother for goodness sake! I feel the need to show him who's in charge...he is taller, stronger, and possibly has the most vocab on English name-calling, but I'm the eldest, that count for something...right? Anyway, the argument went on with "I don't like your attitude", "Yours is not wonderful either" and " Just give me the damn money!"

He went on on how he dislike my cold stare and hence he return the "favour" by staring back too (He has got this very thin eyes that looks like he' is gonna kill you any moment), but I wasn't backing down. Instead, I went on looking at him sacarsticly(I got that nasty habit that even I hate it myself, I'm sorry...thats the way I look..) He went nuts! The hands were almost to my neck and I knew that he had thought of struggling me while smashing my head on the wall. Honestly, have you ever heard of that? (Of-cos, you just did..)

My brother and I...no..make it my family and I had the worst temper I've ever seen. To tell you the truth...I think my bro's more aggressive than mine, while I bottle my anger then let it all out in one go (at that point of time, his temper would be a small fry) :P

I wasn't like this when I was in sec 1. It was because my bro started to get full of himself that I had decided not to back down, thus resulting the formation of a sarcastic me. (or is it by nature? I had no idea)

I'm trying to correct this when ever I can...Can someone please help me?!

*Note* Bro, you are not eligible for this, you also need a serious anger management!

2008-09-19T19:58:00.000-07:00

I've promised myself not to be emo again but I end up being it anyways..

Had been thinking about a lot of things, lately. Still, I couldn't get it off my head. Thanks Bao for hearing me out, for surviving despite being drowned in my worthless Bla-ing. Was feeling better after that. :)

I had tried calming myself with some more mangas and animes but none of them seems to work. It seems as though they had given up on me. (OMG...look at what i'm saying! I seriously need to get out more!) It seems that I don't have a life...T,T

Joyce ||

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